... St. Ignatius Daily Prayer ...
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1. BEGIN each reflection with this prayer:


Father, you created me and put me on earth for a purpose.
  Jesus, you died for me and called me to complete your work.
    Holy spirit, you help me to carry out the work for which I was created and called.
In your presence and name - I begin my meditation.
May all my thoughts and inspirations have their origin in you and be directed to your glory.


2. READ the reflection (~1 min)

3. THINK about what struck you most as your read the reflection. Why this? (~4 min)

4. SPEAK to God about your thoughts. (1 min)

5. LISTEN to God's response. Simply rest in God's presence with an open mind and an open heart. (4 min)

6. END each reflection by praying Our Father slowly and reverently.


This week's theme:
Who am I?

Someone said, "I am three persons: the person I think I am, the person you think I am, and the person I really am."

The daily meditations of this week are designed to help you get a clearer picture of the real you- not the "you" you think you are not, not the "you" other people think you are, but the "you" you really are."


Day 1 (Monday)

O Lord... what are human beings that you are mindful of them,
mortals that you care for them?...
You have made them a little lower than God,
and crowned them with glory and honor.
                                                                  PSALM 8:1,4-5

Philosopher Arthur Schopenhauer was walking down the street one day. He was lost in thought. Quite accidentally he bumped into another pedestrian. Still lost in thought, he kept on walking. The pedestrian shouted, "Well, who do you think you are?" The absent-minded philosopher was heard to mumble, "Who am I? How I wish I knew!"
Astronaut John Glenn says a standard test for astronaut candidate was to have them give twenty answers to the question "Who am I?" "The first few answers," he said, "were easy. After that, it got harder."

What are three significant answers I would give to the question "Who am I?"

A humble knowledge of myself
is a sure way to God
than a search after learning.
                                                                  THOMAS A KEMPIS


Day 2

Then God Said,
"And now we will make human beings;
they will be like us and resemble us."
                                                                  GENESIS 1:26

Cartoonist Thomas Nast was at a party with some close friends. Someone asked him to draw a quick caricature of each person present. He obliged. Then he passed the sketches around for everyone to look at. There was a lot of laughing and joking. Then something unexpected became evident. While everyone recognized the others instantly, few recognized themselves at first glance. When it comes to ourselves, we often have a blind spot. That is, we fail to see ourselves as others see us. We fail to recognize our most obvious traits: our strengths, weaknesses, mannerisms.

What two words would I pick to describe myself?
What two words might my best friend pick to describe me?
What two words might God pick to describe me?
How would I account for the differences?

If I saw myself as my friends and other people see me,
I would need an introduction.
                                                                  AUTHOR UNKNOWN


Day 3

[Jesus said,]
"Even the hairs of your head have all been counted."
                                                                  Luke 12:7

They say the heads of blondes contain about 150,000 hairs; brunets, about 125,000; and redheads about 100,000.
It's hard to verify this count.
But the big numbers help us appreciate the example Jesus used one day.
Pointing to a flock of sparrows, he said to the people, "Aren't five sparrows sold for two pennies?
Yet not one sparrow is forgotten by God."
No doubt Jesus ran his fingers through the hair of a little girl, smiled, and said, "Even the hairs of your head have all been counted.
So do not be afraid; you are worth much more than many sparrows!"
In other words, Jesus assures us that we are precious in God's sight.
God treasures us beyond our wildest imagining.
Thus, one answer to the question "Who am I?" is this: "I am someone treasured by God."

Why does God treasure me?
What is one talent I have? How am I using it?
How might I put it to better use in the future?

Under all the false, overloaded, glittering masquerade,
there is in every person a noble nature.
                                                                  B. Auerbach


Day 4

They said to one another,
"Here comes that dreamer...
Let's kill him... Then we will see
what becomes of his dreams."
                                                                  GENESIS 37:19-20

"I have a dream that one day this nation will rise up and live out true meaning of its creed:
' We hold these truths to be self-evident; that all men are created equal.'
I have a dream that one day on the red hills of Georgia the sons of former slaves and the sons of former slaveowners will be able to sit down together at the table of brotherhood... This is our hope.
This is the faith that I go back to the South with.
With this faith, we will be able to hew out of the mountains of despair a stone of hope."
                                                                  MARTIN LUTHER KING, JR.

What is a dream I have for our nation as a whole?
For myself as an individual?

It isn't a calamity
to die with dreams unfulfilled,
but it is a calamity not to dream.
                                                                  BENJAMIN E. MAYS


Day 5

Each one should judge his own conduct...
without having to compare it
with what someone else has done.
                                                                  GALATIANS 6:4

A woman was riding on a train. Suddenly she caught sight of a white cottage on a hillside. Against the backdrop of dark green grass, the cottage sparkled in the sun and was a lovely sight.
Months later the same woman was on the same train.
Now it was winter, and snow covered the ground.
The woman remembered the cottage and watched for it.
This time she was shocked. Against the backdrop of the sparkling snow, the cottage looked dirty and drab.
There's a lesson here.
We tend to compare ourselves with those around us.
The story of the cottage shows how misleading this can be.
It all depends on who happens to be around us when we make our judgment.

What criterion do I use to judge
how well I am doing as a person?
Using this criterion, how would I rate myself on a scale of one(low) to seven(high)?

In the twilight of life,
God will not judge us on our earthly
possessions and human successes,
but on how well we have loved.
                                                                  SAINT JOHN OF THE CROSS


Day 6

The Lord said...
"[People look] at the outward appearance,
but I look at the heart.
                                                                  1 SAMUEL, 16:7

The movie Mask is based on the true story of sixteen-year-old Rocky Dennis.
A rare disease made the bones of his face grow larger than they should
As a result, Rocky's face was horribly misshapen.
He never pitied himself or gave way to anger.
Instead, he accepted his appearance as it was.
One day Rocky and some friends were at an amusement park. They went into a "house of mirrors" and began to laugh at how distorted their bodies and faces looked.
Suddenly Rocky saw something that startled him.
One mirror distorted his misshapen face in a way that made it appear normal. In that mirror Rocky was strikingly handsome.
For the first time, Rocky's friends saw him as he was on the inside: a beautiful person.

What do I like best about my "inside" person?
My "outside" person?

It is better to be patient than powerful.
It is better to win control over yourself
than over whole cities.
                                                                  proverbs 16:32


Day 7

We know that when Christ appears,
we shall be like him.
                                                                  1 JOHN 3:2

There's a legend about an Indian boy who found an eagle's egg. He took the egg home and put it in a chicken's nest. A baby eagle hatched out of the egg and grew up with the other baby chickens.
The little eagle thought he was a chicken and did what other chickens did.
He scratched in the dirt, made chicken noises, and thrashed his wings about awkwardly, rising only a few feet off the ground.
One day the little eagle saw a beautiful bird soaring high in the sky above him.
It glided on the wind in great circles.
"What a marvelous bird!"
the eagle said to an adult chicken standing nearby.
"It's the king of the birds.
But don't get any silly ideas.
You could never be like him or do what he's doing."

How is the legend of the eagle a parable of who I really am?
What might I learn from the parable?

We are stardust, we are golden-
and we've got to get ourselves back to the garden.
                                                                  JONI MITCHELL


This week's theme:
Do I rejoice in who I am?

Two women named Hooker wrote letters to columnist Ann Landers.
The first woman resented her name.
The second rejoiced in it.

The second woman explained that a sense of humor has made all the difference.
For example, she said that when she gets crude phone calls asking how much she charges, she answers, "More than you can afford, Buddy!"
She added, "Believe it or not, there are advantages to being a Hooker.
Your name is rarely misspelled, and no one ever forgets it."

The reaction of the two women is typical of how different people react differently to the same situation.

This week's meditations invite you to ask, What is my reaction to who I am?
How happy am I with myself: my looks, my talents, and so forth?

The grace you ask is:

Lord, give me
the serenity to accept-even joyfully-
that part of myself that I can't change,
the courage to change that part of myself
that I ought to change, and
the wisdom to know one from the other.
                                                                  SERENITY PRAYER (adapted)


Day 8

[Lord,]
when my bones were being formed,
carefully put together
in my mother's womb,...
you knew that I was there-
you saw me before I was born.
                                                                  PSALM 139:15-16

A teacher gave this assignment to her students:
"Find an unnoticed flower around your home and study it.
Note its petals-their shape and their color.
Turn it over and look at its underside.
As you do, remember that this flower is your flower.
It might have died unappreciated had you not found it and admired it."
Next day, after the students reported on their flowers, the teacher said:
"Each one of us is like your flower.
We are unique. But we often go unappreciated because no one takes the time to notice our unique beauty.
Each one of us is a masterpiece of God.
There won't be another person like us-ever again."

What is one special gift or unique talent that God has blessed me with?

Lord, help me to root out from my heart
everything that is of my own planting
and to restore to my heart
everything that is of your planting.


Day 9

I have the strength to face all conditions
by the power that Christ gives me.
                                                                  PHILIPPIANS 4:13

Tom Dempsey was born with no right hand and with only half a right foot.
But that didn't stop him from playing football in junior college.
He got so good as a place kicker that the New Orleans Saints signed him.
On November 8, 1970, the Saints were trailing Detroit 17-16 with two seconds to go on Detroit's forty-five-yard line.
The Saints' coach turned to Tom and said, "Go out and give it your best shot!" When the holder set the ball down, it was exactly sixty-three yards from the uprights. The rest is history.
Tom broke the NFL field goal record by seven yards. Later he told Newsweek magazine, "I couldn't follow the ball that far. But I saw the official's arms go up and I can't describe how great I felt."

What is the closest thing to a "handicap" that God has given me?
How might I turn it into an "advantage"?

I thank God for my handicaps,
for through them, I have found myself, my work, and my God.
                                                                  HELEN KELLER


Day 10

Be glad about...[the] trials you suffer.
Their purpose is to prove that your faith is genuine.
Even gold... is tested by fire; and so your faith...
must also be tested, so that it may endure.
                                                                  1 PETER 1:6-7

Near Cirpple Creek in Colorado, telluride ore contains gold and tellurium. Early refining methods couldn't separate the two, so the ore was thrown away. One day a miner mistook a lump of ore for coal and tossed it into his stove.
Later he found beads of pure gold littering the ashes of his stove.
The heat had burned away the tellurium, leaving the gold in a purified state. We are like telluride ore.
Gold is inside us, but it often takes a "fiery trial" in the "stove of affliction" to bring it out of us.

What trial or affliction in my life helped me most to discover the gold inside me?

It ain't possible to explain some things.
It is interesting to wonder on them and do some speculation,
but the main thing is you have to accept it-
take it for what it is
and get on with your growing.
                                                                  JIM DODGE


Day 11

Once there was a man who went out to sow grain.
                                                                  MARK 4:3

A saying reads, "I will set my face to the wind and scatter my seeds on high." That's a poetic way of saying that God expects us to use our talents(seeds) to better our world.
It also warns us that we will meet difficulties(wind) doing this. Consider an example. Before dying, someone wrote: "We have to believe every part of our lives has value.
What has value can be shared. I've something to share: Embrace every situation with confidence in its meaning and value! I think that's what Jesus meant when he called us the light of the world. He wants us to believe in our meaning and value.
To believe in him and his Father, we have to believe in ourselves."

What tends to keep me from believing that my life has meaning and value? How can I overcome this stumbling block?

Each is given a bag of tools, A shapeless mass,/ A book of rules; And each must make-/ Ere life is flown- A stumbling block/ Or a steppingstone.                                                                   JR.L. SHARPE


Day 12

[Jesus said,]
"If anyone wants to come with me..
he must forget himself, carry his cross, and follow me."
                                                                  MARK 8:34

James Du Pont recalls this childhood episode. He awoke one night to hear his mother sobbing loudly. It was the first time he had ever heard her cry.
Then he heard his father speaking to her.
James says: "My dad's voice was low and troubled as he tried to comfort mother; and in their anguish they both forgot about the nearness of my bedroom."
Describing the impact this experience had on him, James says: "While their problem ..has long since been solved and forgotten, the big discovery I made that night is still with me. Life is not all hearts and flowers. It's hard and cruel, much of the time."

When did I learn firsthand that life can be hard and cruel? What can I do to make sure that life's hardships and cruelty will make me better- not bitter?

Things "turn out best"
for the people who make the best
of the way things "turn out."
                                                                  ART LINKLETTER


Day 13

[Jesus said,]
"Knock, and the door will be opened."
                                                                  MATTHEW 7:7

When Glenn Cunningham was seven years old, his legs were burned so badly that doctors considered amputation.
At the last minute they decided against it.
One doctor patted Glenn's shoulder and said, "When the weather turns warm, we'll get you into a chair on the porch."
Glenn replied, "I don't want to sit. I want to walk and run, and I will."
Two years later Glenn was running.  He wasn't running fast, but he was running.
When Glenn went to college, his extracurricular activity was track.
Now he was running not to prove the doctors wrong but because he was good at it.
Then came the Berlin Olympics.
Glenn not only qualified but also broke the Olympic record for the 1,5000-meter race.
The boy who wasn't supposed to walk again became the world's fastest human.

How tenaciously am I willing to strive- against odds- to reach a goal I value?

Big shots
are only little shots who keep shooting.
                                                                  CHRISTOPHER MORLEY


Day 14

Happy are you poor;
the Kingdom of God is yours!
                                                                  LUKE 6:20

Critics called Marc Chagall the greatest artist of the twentieth century. In My Life, Chagall tells how he grew up in a poor Jewish family in Russia. His interest in art was aroused when he watched a classmate copy a picture from a magazine.
Shortly afterward, when his mother was baking bread, he touched her flour-smeared elbow and said, "Mama, I want to be an artist." Chagall's dream took him to Paris, where he won worldwide acclaim.
He never forgot his poverty; he rejoiced in it and felt that it helped him saying: "The very worst thing to have too early is a little success, a little money... a little satisfaction.
The little satisfactions..hold you back from big dedication."

What experience from my childhood or early family life is impacting my present life in a major way- for good?

Happy are they who grieve not
for what they have not,
but give thanks for what they do have.
AUTHOR UNKNOWN


This week's theme:
How meaningful is my life?

Jerry Kramer played for the Green Bay Packers and made the All-Pro team four times.
During his career he kept a diary.
Later it was published under the title of Instant Replay: The Green Bay Dairy of Jerry Kramer.

In one entry, Jerry talks about the movie Cool Hand Luke.
Luke was a wild character who was in and out of prison all of his life. The last time he got out of prison, he went into a church, knelt down, and said something like this:
"Old Man, whadaya got planned for me? What's next? Whadaya put me on earth for?"
Commenting on the scene, Kramer writes:
"I ask myself the same questions.
I often wonder where my life is heading, and what's my purpose here on earth besides playing the silly games I play every Sunday.
I feel there's got to be more to life than that.
There's got to be some reason for it. I didn't come up with any answers this morning.
I just thought about it for a while."

This week's meditations
focus on the meaning of life.
The grace you ask for is:

Lord, help me discover the meaning that you intended my life to have when you created me.


Day 15

Where have you come from
and where are you going?.
                                                                  GENESIS 16:8

King Edwin lived in seventh-century England.
One day he was talking to a close friend about the shortness of life.
His friend made this comparison: " O king, recall the room where you meet with your officers on cold winter nights in front of the huge fireplace.
During those meetings, a lone sparrow sometimes flies into the room through an opening, exiting just as quickly through another opening.
Life is like the swift flight of that sparrow.
While it is inside the room, safe from the cold, it enjoys a brief space of fair weather.
But then it vanishes again into the night.
No one knows whence it came or where it goes.
So it is with us, O king. Our time on earth is brief, like the flight of that sparrow.
No one knows whence we came or where we go."

If someone asked me
where I came from and
where I am going, what would I say?

Make sure the thing you're living for
is worth dying for.
                                                                  CHARLES MAYES


Day 16

Teach us how short our life is,
so that we may become wise.
                                                                  PSALM 90:12

In the play Our Town, Emily dies giving birth to her first child.
She learns from the dead that it is possible for her to choose one day from her life and relive it.
But they all advise against it.
Emily ignores their advice and chooses to relive one of the happiest days of her life, her twelfth birthday.
She begins.
But before she gets halfway through the day, she cries out, " I can't.
I can't go on... We don't have time to look at one another.
Take me back up the hill to my grave."
Later she asks one of the dead, "Do humans ever realize life while they live it?"
The dead person pauses a minute and says sadly, " No.
The saints and poets, maybe-they do some."

To what extent do I tend to live in the fast lane, forgetting to stop and smell the flowers now and then?

Our lives are songs; God writes the words
And we set them to music at pleasure;
And the song grows glad, or sweet or sad,
As we choose to fashion the measure.
                                                                  ELLA WHEELER WILCOX


Day 17

[Jesus said,] They look, but do not see,
and they listen, but do not hear.
                                                                  MATTHEW 13:13

Starbuck is a character in the play The Rainmaker. He's unhappy with life but doesn't know why. Another character, named Lizzie, says it's his own fault. He never pauses long enough to see life as it really is. Then Lizzie gives him an example. She says that sometimes she watches her father playing cards with her brothers. At first she sees only a man, not very attractive or interesting to look at. But as she continues to look, she begins to see other things. "I'll see little things I never saw in him before. Good things and bad things-queer little habits I never...paid any mind to. And suddenly I know who he is and I love him so much I could cry! And I want to thank God I took the time to see him real."

What one thing, especially, keeps me from pausing to see life and people as they really are?

Nothing here below is profane
for those who know how to see.
On the contrary, everything is sacred.
                                                                  TEILHARD DE CHARDIN


Day 18

[Jesus said,] " Don't be all upset...
about what you will eat and drink...
Your Father knows
that you need these things.
Instead, be concerned with his Kingdom,
and he will provide you with these things.."
                                                                  LUKE 12:29-31

A motorist drove into a "full-service" station. Three attendants charged out to service his car. When they finished, the motorist paid for the ten gallons of gas and drove off. Three minutes later he returned, saying, "I'm embarrassed to ask you this, but did anyone put gas in my car?" The attendants looked at one another. In their rush to serve, they had forgotten the gas. What happened to the attendants sometimes happens to us. We get so involved in living life that we forget why God gave us life. ,P> In what sense might I be like the attendants at the gas station?

While it is well enough
to leave footprints on the sands of time,
it is even more important
to make sure they point
in a commendable direction.
                                                                  JAMES BRANCH CABELL


Day 19

[Jesus said,] " Whoever loses his life for me
and for the gospel will save it."
                                                                  MARK 8:35

There's a movie star in John O'Hara's novel The Last Laugh. He has been an SOB all of his life. Eventually his career goes into a tailspin, and he ends up a complete zero. Realizing his situation, he says to himself, "At least I was once the idol of movie fans all over the country. Nobody can take that away from me." When you read this, you feel like laughing out loud and saying, "Big deal, buster! Who cares now!"

If my life continues on its current course, how content will I be at death? How successful in God's eyes will it have been?

To every man there openeth
A way and ways and a way.
And the high soul climbs the high way,
And the low soul gropes the low,
And in between, on the misty flats,
The rest drift to and fro.
But to every man there openeth
A high way and a low.
And every man decideth
The way his soul shall go.
                                                                  JOHN OXENHAM


Day 20

[Jesus said,] " Does a person gain anything
if he wins the whole world
but loses his life?"
                                                                  MARK 8:36

A basketball team had just celebrated a prayer service before playing in the state tournament. During the service, the chaplain said to the team, "The important thing ten years from now won't be whether or not you won the state championship. Rather, it will be what you became in the process of trying to win it." After the prayer service, the coach said to the players: "Sit down a minute. Our chaplain said something that is bothering me. I wonder what we've become trying to put together a winning season. Have we become more loyal to one another? More loving? Better Christians? I hope to God that we have. Because if we haven't, we've failed God, we've failed one another, we've failed ourselves."

Where am I putting my priorities: on "becoming" or "acquiring"? What is some concrete evidence of this?

You can't turn back the clock.
But you can wind it up again.
                                                                  BONNIE PRUDDEN


Day 21

"I am now giving you the choice
between life and death...
and I call heaven and earth
to witness the choice you make."
                                                                  DEUTERONOMY 30:19

On the night of April 15, 1912, the Titanic hit an iceberg and sank, taking over 1,500 lives. Seventy years later a magazine advertisement cited the disaster and asked its readers: "If you'd been on the Titanic when it was sinking, would you have rearranged the deck chairs?" At first we say to ourselves, "That's a silly question." But then we get the point the ad is making. Our world is facing a spiritual disaster, and many of us are "rearranging the deck chairs."

The advertisement invites me to ask, Am I so caught up in my own little world that I am forgetting about the larger world? Am I so concerned about my own little world that I am forgetting that God created me and placed me in the larger world for a purpose?

A time like this demands
Strong minds, great hearts,
true faith, and ready hands!.
                                                                  JOSIAH G. HOLLAND


This week's theme:
How real is God for me?

The film Laura is about a young detective assigned to investigate the murder of a young woman named Laura. One night someone came to her apartment and fired a shotgun blast into her face. For the next week the detective spends all of his time in Laura's apartment, checking everything-even reading her diary for a clue that might lead to her killer.

Then something strange happens. The more the detective learns about Laura, the more he finds himself becoming emotionally involved. He finds himself falling in love with her. One night, as he ponders her case in her apartment, the key turns in the lock. The door opens, and there stands Laura.

To make a long story short, the slain woman was someone who had used Laura's apartment when Laura was away on vacation. The movie ends with Laura and the detective falling in love, marrying, and living happily ever after.

The movie is a kind of modern parable of what God wants to happen to each of us. God wants us to study the world, falling love with its Creator, and live happily forever after.

This week's meditations seek to help you do just that. The grace you ask for is:

Lord my God, teach my heart
where and how to seek you,
where and how to find you.
                                                                  ANSELM OF CANTERBURY


Day 22

God is our shelter and strength,
always ready to help in times of trouble.
                                                                  PSALM 46:1

In Today's Christian Woman, Sharon O'Donohue writes that in working with young people, she suddenly realized that she herself had been spared a lot of grief as a teenager. When she probed for a reason, she came up with this answer: "In the early stages of my childhood, I had been taught that someone by the name of God... was always present... How did I know? Because I had a patient mom who listened to all my questions, who used everyday situations to teach me that God was always there."

What role did the faith of my parents or guardians play in building my own personal faith, especially my faith in God and God's personal care for me?

God be in my eyes-and in my looking;
God be in my mouth-and in my speaking;
God be in my mind-and in my knowing;
God be in my heart-and in my loving;
God be in all my life- and all my living.
                                                                  ANONYMOUS


Day 23

God said...
"Take off your sandals,
because you are standing on holy ground.".
                                                                  EXODUS 3:5

In The Golden String, Bede Griffiths describes a childhood experience. He was walking outside one summer evening and suddenly became aware of how beautifully the birds were singing. He wondered why he had never heard them sing like this before. Continuing to walk, he came to a field. Everything was quiet and still. As he stood there, watching the sun slip below the horizon, he felt inclined to kneel down. It was as though God were there in a tangible way. He wrote later, "Now that I look back on it, it seems to me it was one of the decisive moments of my life."

Can I recall a childhood experience that had a powerful effect on my life? When? What?

Earth's crammed with heaven,
And every common bush aflame with God;
And only he who sees takes off his shoes-
The rest sit round it
and pluck blackberries.
                                                                  E.B. BROWNING


Day 24

I am the LORD...
I will be with you and protect you wherever you go."
                                                                  GENESIS 28:13,15

Thor Heyerdahl won fame by navigating a small raft, called Kon Tiki, across 4,300 miles of ocean. Oddly enough, Thor once had a deathly fear of water. He overcame it when a canoe carrying him capsized near a waterfall in a Canadian river. As the rapids swept him toward the falls, a strange thought came into his mind. He would soon learn which of his parents was right. His father believed in God; his mother did not. Then something strange happened. The Lord's Prayer flashed into his mind, and he began to pray. A burst of energy shot through him. He began to battle the rapids. Some unseen power was helping him. A few minutes later he made it to shore. That day Thor lost his fear of water and gained the sure knowledge that his father was right.

Can I recall a time when God seemed to help me in a special way? When? How?

God's presence is not discerned
at the time when it is upon us,
but afterwards when we look back.
                                                                  JOHN HENRY NEWMAN


Day 25

I am the LORD your God...
'Do not be afraid; I will help you.'"
                                                                  ISAIAH 41:13

One night Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., was just about to doze off when the phone rang. A voice on the other end said, "Listen, nigger, we've taken all we want from you. Before next week, you'll be sorry you ever came to Montgomery." Dr. King hung up. Suddenly all his fears came crashing down on him. He got up and heated a pot of coffee. Then he sat down at the kitchen table, bowed his head, and prayed: "People are looking to me for leadership, and if I stand before them without strength and courage, they too will falter. I am at the end of my powers. I have nothing left. I've come to the point where I can't face it alone." At that moment, Dr. King felt God's presence as he had never felt it before.

When do I feel closest to God: in time of need, joy, love, or prayer?

I know not where His islands lift
Their fronded palms in air;
I only know I cannot drift
Beyond His loving care.
                                                                  JOHN GREENLEAF WHITTIER


Day 26

Be still, and know that I am God!'"
                                                                  PSALM 46:10(NRSV)

The air space in the room in which you are sitting is alive with hundreds of television shows. They swirl about invisibly in living color and exciting sound. This is not science fiction; it's science fact. But the only way we can prove this fact is by means of a "big dish" and a television set. Just as the air space around you is alive with an invisible television world, so it is alive with an invisible faith world. And just as we need a "big dish" and a television set to get in touch with the invisible television world, we need prayer to get in touch with the invisible faith world. In other words, prayer is a way to open our being to contact with the most real of all worlds: the faith world.

Can I recall a time since beginning to pray when I felt in touch with something beyond this world?

God exists within us
even more intimately
than we exist within oursleves.
                                                                  LOUIS EVELY


Day 27 (Saturday)

Listen to my words, O LORD,
and hear my sighs.'
                                                                  PSALM 5:1

An eleventh-century monk, Anselm of Canterbury, wrote a book called Proslogion. It contains this prayer:
"Lord my God, teach my heart
where and how to seek you,
where and how to find you...
You are my God and you are my Lord,
and I have never seen you.
You have made me and remade me,
and you have bestowed on me
all the good things I possess,
and still I do not know you...
I have not yet done that
for which I was made...
Teach me to seek you...for
I cannot seek you unless you teach me or
find you unless you show yourself to me.
Let me seek you in my desire,
let me desire you in my seeking.
Let me find you by loving you,
let me love you when I find you."

On a scale of one(very little) to ten(very much), how earnestly am I seeking God?

God is an unutterable sigh,
lying in the depths of the heart.
                                                                  SEBASTIAN FRANCK - 1004


Day 28 (Sunday)

LORD, ... you know everything I do.'"
                                                                  PSALM 139:1-2

Eddie Rickenbacker and a crew of seven carshed into the Pacific. They survived twenty-one days by hand-catching fish, drinking rain water, and praying. Here's a prayer they repeated often:
"LORD,...you know everything I do...
You see me, whether I am working or resting;
you know all my actions.
Even before I speak,
you already know what I will say.
You are all around me on every side;
You protect me with your power.
Your knowledge of me is too deep;
it is beyond my understanding.
Where could I go to escape from you?...
If I flew away beyond the east or
lived in the farthest place in the west,
you would be there to lead me,
you would be there to help me."

Who is God for me?
How real is God for me right now in my life?
How do I explain this?

The Mighty One
has done great things for me,
and holy is [God's] name.
                                                                  LUKE 1:49(NRSV) - 1004


This week's theme:
What is God's plan for me?

Coach Grant Teaff of Baylor University wrote a book entitled I believe. In it he describes an incident that happened early in his coaching career.

He and his team were flying back to Texas on a chartered plane. Suddenly the plane developed engine trouble. The pilot told them to prepare for a crash landing. Minutes later the plane bellied across the ground, engulfed n a shower of sparks. Miraculously, no one was hurt.

Later, Coach Teaff knelt and prayed: "God, I know that you have a plan, a purpose, and a will for my life and the lives of these young men. I do not know what it is, but I'll.. try to impress upon the young men I coach this year and forever that there is more to life than just playing football; that you do have a purpose for our lives.

This week's readings take up the questions of God's purpose in creating you. The grace you ask for is:

Lord, put into my heart
an unshakeable conviction
that you have a plan for me,
even though I might not yet know it.


Day 29 (Monday)

I put my trust in you.
My prayers go up to you;
show me the way I should go.
                                                                  PSALM 143:8

Doug Anderson graduated from high school with a lot of unanswered questions. He got his parents' permission to do a 2,000-mile hike along the Appalachian Trail from Maine to Florida. We wanted time to think about life: Was there a God? What was the purpose of life? How ought he to spend his life? Doug wrote later in Campus Life magazine: I thought the answers might lie in the beautiful wilderness... There had to be more to life than money, TV, parties, and getting high. My hike was a journey to find myself." Five months later Doug returned home. He had found what he was searching for. There was a God, life had a purpose, and he had a role to play in it.

When was the last time I went off alone-like Doug- to seek guidance concerning the purpose of life and my role in it? With what results?

Here lies a person who exited the world
without knowing why he entered it.
                                                                  INSCRIPTION ON A GRAVESTONE - 1004


Day 30 (Tuesday)

Let us love not in words or speech
but in deed and truth.
                                                                  I JOHN 3:18

Gale Sayers, who played for the Chicago Bears in the 1960s, was one of the greatest running backs of all time. Around his neck he wore a gold medal. On it were inscribed three words: "I Am Third." Those words became the title of his best-selling autobiography. The book explains why the words meant so much to Gale. They were the motto of his track coach, Bill Easton, back at the University of Kansas. Coach Easton kept them on a plaque on his desk. One day Gale asked him what they meant. Easton replied, "The Lord is first, my friends are second, and I am third." In Gale's second year with the Bears, he decided he wanted to wear something meaningful around his neck. So he bought a gold medal and had the words " I Am Third" engraved on it. Gale is the first to admit that he doesn't always live up to the motto. But wearing it around his neck, he says, keeps him from straying too far from it.

Would you be willing to wear Gale's medal around your neck and make its words your motto?

Ideals are like stars;
you will not succeed
in touching them with your hands.
But...following them
you will reach your destiny.
                                                                  CARL SCHURZ


Day 31 (Wednesday)

"I... chose you and appointed you
to go and bear fruit.
                                                                  JOHN 15:16

There's an old Jewish legend that explains why God chose Moses over the other people on earth to lead his people, Israel. One day Moses was shepherding some sheep that belonged to his father-in-law, Jethro. Suddenly he spotted a lamb darting off into the underbrush. Moses dropped everything and pursued it, lest it become lost or killed by a wild animal. He finally caught up with the lamb at a tiny stream of water, where it was drinking feverishly. When it had finished, Moses scooped it up in his arms, saying, "Little one, I didn't know you ran away because you were so thirsty. Your tiny legs must be tired." With that he placed the lamb on his shoulders and returned it to the flock. Seeing how caring Moses was, God said, "At last I've found the special person I've been searching for. I will make Moses the shepherd of my people, Israel."

How do I determine what my future is? Do I choose it or does God choose me?

Yours are the only hands
with which God can do [God's] work...
Yours are the only eyes
through which God's compassion
can shine upon a troubled world.
                                                                  SAINT TERESA OF AVILA - 1004


Day 32 (Thursday)

God purposely chose..
what the world looks down on..
in order to destroy
what the world thinks is important.
                                                                  1 CORINTHIANS 1:27-28

A big-city symphony orchestra played a short concert for a centennial celebration in a small New England town. Next day the townspeople could talk about nothing but the concert. One old-timer said, "All I can say is it was a long way to fetch that big drum just to bang it wunst." At times, we may feel about ourselves the way the old man felt about the drum. We may wonder why God went to al the trouble of creating us. Yet, God's plan would not be complete without us. In fact, each of our roles in God's plan is very important.

Do I ever feel about myself the way the old-timer felt about the drum? Why?


Day 33 (Friday)

[Jesus said,] "If you had faith
as big as a mustard seed,
you could say to this mulberry tree,
'Pull yourself up by the roots
and plant yourself in the sea!'
and it would obey you."
                                                                  LUKE 17:6

In the movie The Empire Strikes Back, Luke Skywalker asks the guru Yoda to help him become a Jedi warrior. Luke wants to help free the galaxy from the evil Darth Vader. Yoda starts by teaching young Luke to lift rocks with his mind. Then one day Yoda instructs Luke to lift his X-wing plane out of the swamp where it is stuck. Luke balks, saying, "Lifting rocks in one thing; lifting a plane, another." Predictably, he fails. Then Yoda lifts the plane easily. Luke exclaims, "I can't believe it!" Yoda replies, "That's why you failed!"

How ready am I to commit myself to a noble cause, as Luke did?
How afraid am I of making the same mistake Luke did?

Unless there is within us
that which is above us,
we shall soon
yield to that which is about us.
                                                                  PETER TAYLOR FORSYTH


Day 34 (Saturday)

All things are done
according to God's plan and decision;...
God chose us to be [God's] own people..
based on what [God] had decided
from the very beginning.
                                                                  EPHESIANS 1:11

"Calvin and Hobbes" is a cartoon about a dynamic duo: a little boy and a tiger. One particular cartoon portrays Calvin saying something like this: "Paul Gauguin asks: 'Where did I come from? Who am I? And where am I going?' " Then Calvin answers Gaugin's question in words like this: "Well, speaking for myself, I came from my room. I'm a kid with big plans. And I'm going outside!" Calvin's lightweight answers to Gauguin's heavyweight questions are typical of how many people today respond to the major questions about their existence.

What answer would I give to Gauguin's second and third questions? How well does my life mirror my answers?

All men should try to learn
before they die
what they are running from, and to,
and why.
                                                                  JAMES THURBER


Day 35 (Sunday)

[Jesus said to his disciples,]
"You are like light for the whole world.
A city built on a hill cannot be hid...
In the same way
your light must shine before people,
so that they will see the good things
you do and praise your Father in heaven."
                                                                  MATTHEW 5:14, 16

Before the age of electricity, city streets were lit by gas lamps. Lamplighters lit these lamps with a flaming torch. One night an old man stood looking across a valley to a town on a hillside. He could see the torch of a lamplighter lighting lamps as he went. But because of the darkness, he could not see the lamplighter. He could see only his torch and the trail of lights he left behind. The old man said to a friend standing next to him: "That lamplighter is a good example of how Christians ought to live. You may never have known in them. But you know that they passed through the world by the trail of lights they left behind."

What trail of lights am I leaving behind?

People may doubt what we say,
but they'll believe what we do.
                                                                  LEWIS CASS (slightly adapted)


This week's theme:
How open am I to God's plan for me?

A Man and a woman were marooned on a deserted island for years. One day a ship spotted their smoke signal and sent a lifeboat. But instead of rescuing them, the lifeboat crew handed them several newspapers, saying, "The captain wants you to see what's going on in the world before you decide that you want to return to it."

There may be times when you feel like fleeing to a deserted island. But you know you can't. God put you in the world to make it a better place. You have a role to play in God's plan of salvation. But, in the last analysis it is up to you. You can say yes to God's plan and get involved. Or you can say no and do your own thing.

The goal of this week's readings is to ponder the price you may have to pay if you decide to say yes to God's plan and get involved. The grace you ask is:

Lord, put into my heart the desire
to get involved in your plan,
regardless of what it may cost me.


Day 36 (Monday)

Every athlete in training
submits to strict discipline,
in order to be crowned with a wreath
that will not last...
we do it for one that will last forever.
                                                                  I CORINTHIANS 9:25

In his autobiography, titled Nigger, Dick Gregory, the athlete, comedian, and social activist, tells how he disciplined his body to run for hours each day-even in winter. He writes: "I don't think I would ever have finished high school without running. I never got hungry while I was running, even though we never ate breakfast at home and I didn't always have enough money for lunch...I was proud of my body...and never had to take a rest." Dick Gregory is a living example of what Paul talks about in today's reading.

To what extent am I pursuing the perishable wreath of this life with more effort and resolve than I am the imperishable wreath of eternal life?

What most people tend to forget
is that we have unbelievable control
over our destiny.
                                                                  BILL GOVE


Day 37 (Tuesday)

[Jesus said,]
Whoever remains in me,
and I in him, will bear much fruit."
                                                                  JOHN 15:5

A woman was touring a piano factory. First, the guide showed her a room where workers were sawing wood. Next, the guide took her into a room where workers were building piano frames. Then, the guide took her into a room where workers were sanding and varnishing the piano frames. Next, the woman visited a room where workers were fitting metal strings and ivory keys into the frames. Finally, the woman came to the showroom, where a musician was seated at a piano playing beautiful music. Afterward the woman thought: The difference between what I saw in the first room and in the last room is the difference between an acorn and a tree. It is the difference between what I am now and what I can become.

In which of the five rooms referred to above am I in my spiritual journey?
Is anything in particular tending to hold up or delay my spiritual
progress?

Alas for those who never sing,
but die with their music within them.
                                                                  OLIVER WENDELL HOLMES


Day 38 (Wed)

The Lord said to me,
"I chose you before I gave you life,
and before you were born
I selected you."
                                                                  JEREMIAH 1:4-5

Imagine that you are about to be born into the world. God calls you into his presence and offers you two lives on earth to choose from. God's first choice involves a short life of sickness, poverty, and ridicule by people. This is the best way you can accomplish the task God has in mind for you. God's second choice is just the opposite. It involves a long life of health, wealth, and honor. Realizing what a difficult decision he is presenting to you, God asks you if you want to spend a few days thinking about it before giving your final answer. On the other hand, God wants you to be totally honest. Would thinking about it for a few days be merely a formality, because you would probably choose the second option anyway? Note, God is not asking you to choose now. God is merely asking you if you'd be willing to think seriously about accepting his first choice.

What response would you make to God?

Today's decision is tomorrow's reality.
                                                                  AUTHOR UNKNOWN


Day 39 (Thu)

[Jesus said,]
"The Kingdom of heaven is like this,
A man happens to find a treasure hidden in a field...
He goes and sells everything he has...
and buys that field."
                                                                  MATTHEW 13:44

A magazine ran a story about teenagers who belong to the Santa Clara Swimming Club. They get up at 5:30 A.M. and hurry through the chilly air to an outdoor pool. There they swim for two hours. After a shower and a bite to eat, they dash off to school. After school they return to the pool for two more hours. Then they hurry home, eat, hit the books, and fall into bed, exhausted. The next morning the alarm rings at 5:30, and they start all over again. When asked why she sacrifices so much to swim, one girl said: "My goal is to make the Olympic team. If going to parties hurts that, then why go? The more miles I swim, the better. Sacrifice is the thing."

What is my main goal right now?
What is the chief sacrifice I am making to reach it?
What is my motivation for the sacrifice?

The enemy of the best is not the worst,
but the good enough.
                                                                  L.P. JACKS


Day 40 (Fri)

What can I offer the LORD
for all [the LORD's] goodness to me?
                                                                  PSALM 116:12

The Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius present a set of guidelines for living. They go like this: "I believe that I was created to share my life and love with God and other people, forever. I believe that God created all other things to help me achieve this goal. I believe, therefore, that I should use the other things God created insofar as they help me attain my goal and abstain from them insofar as they hinder me. It follows, therefore, that I should not prefer certain things to others. That is, I should not value, automatically, health over sickness, wealth over poverty, honor over dishonor, or a long life over a short one. I believe my sole norm for valuing and preferring a thing should be this: How well does it help me attain the end for which I was created?"

Would I be willing to adopt this statement as a guide for my life?
If not, how would I reword it to make it acceptable?

Life is God's novel. Let God write it.
                                                                  ISAAC BASHEVIS SINGER


Day 41 (Sat)

What seems to be God's foolishness
is wiser than human wisdom.
                                                                  I CORINTHIANS 1:25

The following reflection was found in the pocket of a dead Confederate soldier:
"I asked for health
that I might do greater things;
I was given infirmity,
that I might do better things...
I asked for riches, that I might be happy;
I was given poverty,
that I might be wise...
I asked for power,
that I might have the praise of men;
I was given weakness,
that I might feel the need of God...
I got nothing I asked for,
but everything I hoped for.
Almost despite myself,
my unspoken prayers were answered.
I am among all men most richly blessed."

What is the point of this reflection?
How does it relate to the "guidelines for living" of the previous reading?

Troubles are often the means God uses
to fashion people
into something better than they are.
                                                                  ANONYMOUS


Day 42 (Sun)

[Jesus prayed to his Father,]
"Not my will... but your will be done."
                                                                  LUKE 22:42

"I asked God to take away my pride
and God said, 'No,'
He said it was not for Him to take away,
but for me to give up.
I asked God to make my handicapped child whole,
and God said, 'No.'
He said, "Her spirit is whole,
her body is only temporary.'
I asked God to grant me patience,
and God said, 'No.'
He said that patience is a by-product of tribulation.
It isn't granted, it is earned.
I asked God to give me happiness,
and God said, 'No.'
He said,'Suffering draws you apart from worldly cares
and brings you closer to me...
I asked God to help me love others
as much as he loves me, and God said,
'Ah, finally you have the idea.' "
                                                                  AUTHOR UNKNOWN

How ready am I to hand God a blank check and allow God to fill it out for me?
How do I explain this?

When I will what God wills,
I know my heart is right.


This week's theme:
How aware am I of sin's presence in my life?

The images on a television screen owe their existence to the television set. When it goes on, they go on. When it goes off, they go off. Suppose the images decided to rebel and said to the set, "We don't need you anymore. We declare our independence from you." Such a declaration would be ludicrous. It would be like an echo telling a voice, "I declare my independence from you. I don't need you."

In a sense, that's what sin is. It is an attempt to declare our independence from God. To put it in another way, it is saying no to God and God's plan for us.

This week's meditation put you in touch with the power of sin- a power that can destroy you and the world. The grace you ask before each meditation is:

Lord, enlighten my mind
to see my sinfulness.
Move my heart
to be sickened by what I see.
Touch my soul
to cry out in shame and sorrow.


Day 43 (Mon)

"Take to heart these words."
                                                                  DEUTERONOMY 6:6

"If you get what you want in your struggle for self,
And the world makes you king for a day,
Just go to the mirror and look at yourself,
And see what that man has to say.
For it isn't your father, or mother, or brother,
Who upon you their judgment will pass.
The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life
Is the one staring back from the glass....
He's the fellow to please -never mind all the rest!
For he's with you right up to the end.
And you've passed your most difficult dangerous test,
If the man in the glass is your friend.
You may fool the world down the pathway of years,
And get pats on the back as you pass,
But your final reward will be headache or tears,
If you've cheated the man in the glass."
                                                                  AUTHOR UNKNOWN

What is one way that I tend to cheat "the man in the glass"?

No man can produce great things
who is not thoroughly sincere
in dealing with himself.
                                                                  JAMES RUSSELL LOWELL


Day 44 (Tue)

My sins have caught up with me,
and I can no longer see.
                                                                  PSALM 40:12

Years ago there was a popular television program called "The Mork and Mindy Show." Mork was an alien who had remarkable power. One day he shared some of this power with a few of his friends on earth. Touching his fingertips to theirs, he transferred just a little bit to them. Right away they began using it to make people do ridiculous things, like turn cartwheels and leap up and down. Mork was horrified and shouted, "Stop! You're misusing the power. Give it back!" That episode is a good illustration of what sin is. It is misusing the power and talents that God has shared with us.

What is one gift from God that I tend to misuse? Why this one?

My sense of sin
is linked to my sense of God.
The closer I am to God,
the more aware I am of my sinfulness.
This is because distance from God
reduces the contrast necessary for me
to recognize my true condition.


Day 45 (Wed)

Create a pure heart in me, O God,
and put a new and loyal spirit in me.
                                                                  PSALM 51:10

Thomas Merton had just graduated from high school and was touring Europe alone. One night in his room, Tom underwent a soul-stirring experience. It made him deeply aware of all the sinfulness in his life. He wrote later in The Seven Storey Mountain: My whole being rose up in revolt and horror with what was within me, and my soul desired escape...from all this with an intensity and urgency unlike anything I had ever known before. And now I think for the first time in my whole life I really began to pray... praying to the God I had never known, to reach down towards me out of [God's] darkness and help me to get free of the thousand terrible things that held my will in their slavery.

What is the closest I have ever come to having an experience like this?

It is one thing to mourn for sin
because it exposes us to hell,
and another to mourn for it
because it is an infinite evil.
                                                                  GARDINER SPRING


Day 46 (Thu)

"They sell into slavery honest men...
They trample down the weak..
and push the poor out of the way."
                                                                  AMOS 2:6-7

You'd hardly expect the dean of American psychiatry to talk about sin. But that's what Dr. Karl Menninger does in his book Whatever Became of Sin? He is troubled by individuals who won't admit that they sin. He is also troubled by "sins of collective responsibility" - sins committed by groups or nations, such as disregard exploitation of migrant workers. The tragic things about "sins of collective responsibility," says Dr. Menninger, is that single individuals don't consider themselves responsible for them.

How hard is it for me to admit my failures, shortcomings, and sinfulness? How responsible do I feel for "sins of collective responsibility"?

.
We're improving immensely.
We don't steal anymore; we only "lift."
We don't lie; we only "misinform."
We don't fornicate; we only "fool around."
We don't kill;
we only "terminate a pregnancy."
                                                                  ANONYMOUS


Day 47 (Fri)

If we say that we have no sin...
we make a liar out of God.
                                                                  I JOHN 1:8, 10

In the book In His Presence, Louis Evely writes: "The worst evil lies not in committing evil but in committing evil while pretending it is good... It is better to sin with sincerity than to lie to oneself in order to stay virtuous. You will repent of a straightforward sin more easily than one wrapped in doubt. Don't muddy the water so as to fish from it whatever you desire." Then in a burst of emotion, Evely concludes: "Commit straightforward, clear-cut and undeniable sins of which you will later be able to repent with the same sincerity you use in committing them... If you are weak enough to sin, do not be too proud to recognize the fact."

What advice would I give to people
who find it hard to admit that they sin?

There are two kinds of people:
the righteous
who believe themselves sinners;
the rest
who believe themselves righteous.
                                                                  BLAISE PASCAL


Day 48 (Sat)

My sins have caught up with me,
and I can no longer see...
I have lost my courage.
                                                                  PSALM 40:12

In your imagination, replay what wen on in the minds and hearts of the first woman and the first man after they sinned. Try to visualize all the pain and suffering that their sin unleashed in the world. Pass in review all the people who have sinned since the time of the first sin. Consider how their sins have added to the what sin is: not only a rejection of God and God's plan for us, but also an instrument of suffering and destruction. In your mind's eyes, see Jesus hanging on the cross-suffering because of sin. Finally, speak to Jesus about why he suffered all this pain. Then ponder these three questions:

What have I done for Jesus in the past?
What am I doing for Jesus now?
What ought I to do for Jesus in the future?

O Lord, reform our world-
beginning with me.
                                                                  A CHINESE CHRISTIAN'S PRAYER


Day 49 (Sun)

"We are healed
by the punishment he suffered,
made whole by the blows he received."
                                                                  ISAIAH 53:5

We all need to admit two things to ourselves. First, that we are sinners. Second, that in spite of this, our Father in heaven loves us. Julian of Norwich, the great English mystic, explains that even past sins can be turned into something good-if we acknowledge them as sins. Julian says, for example: "If we never fell, we should never know how weak and wretched we are in ourselves; nor should we appreciate the astonishing love of our Maker... We sin grievously, yet despite all this... we are no less precious in [God's] sight. By the simple fact that we fall, we gain knowledge of what God's love means."

To what extent have I experienced
what Julian of Norwich refers to?

Voice of Jesus, you called me
when I strayed from you.
Arms of Jesus, you raised me
when I slipped and fell.
Heart of Jesus, you loved me
even when I sinned.


This week's theme:
How aware am I that I will be held accountable for my life?

One day a shabbily dressed man stood on a busy Chicago street corner. As office workers filed by on their way to lunch, he'd raise his arm, point to the nearest one, and shout, "Guilty!" Then he'd lower his arm for a minute or two and go through the whole procedure again.

The effect on the office workers was eerie. They'd glance at the man, look away, glance back, and hurry on.

Humorous as the story is, it makes an important point: Like every living person, each of us is guilty of sin and will someday be judged by God. This week's meditations focus on this reality. The grace you ask before each meditation is:

Lord,
help me live in such a way now
that I'll rejoice in your judgment later.

Spiritual directors recommend that you get into the habit of performing a daily "judgment" of your actions. One way to do this is to take three minutes each night to do the following:

First minute. Replay your day. Pick out a high point in it- a good thing you did, like going out of your way to help someone. Then talk to God about it, giving thanks for the opportunity to do it.

Second minute. Replay your day again. This time pick out a low point- a bad thing you did, like putting down someone who really needs to be lifted up. Then talk to Jesus about it, asking forgiveness for responding as you did.

Third minute. Look ahead to tomorrow to a critical point- a hard thing you must do, like dealing with a personal problem. Then talk to the Holy Spirit about the problem, asking help to deal with it.


Day 50 (Mon)

Everyone must die...
and after that be judged by God.
                                                                  HEBREW 9:27

There's an ancient play called Everyman. It opens with a "Messenger" stepping out in front of the curtain, looking intently at the audience, and saying, "I pray you... hear this matter with reverence... Look well, and take heed...For ye shall hear how our Heavenly King calleth Everyman to a general reckoning." The play then portrays Death coming to tell Everyman that his earthly years are over and it is time for him to enter eternity. When Everyman recovers from shock, he asks Death to give him time to ask his three most-cherished earthly companions-Power,Prestige, and Pleasure- to enter eternity with him. Death obliges. To Everyman's dismay, however, they refuse to go with him.

Can I name three "most-cherished earthly companions" of my own
who will refuse to enter eternity with me? How do I feel about this?

The few little years we spend on earth
are only the first scene in a Divine Drama
that extends into eternity.
                                                                  EDWIN MARKHAM


Day 51 (Tue)

Every one of us, then,
will have to give an account...to God.
                                                                  ROMANS 14:12

The hero in the novel The Man Who Lost Himself trails a suspect to a Paris hotel. To learn the suspect's room number without arousing suspicion, the hero gives the clerk his own name and asks if a man by that name is registered. While the clerk checks the room list, the hero plans to watch for the suspect's number. To the hero's surprise, the clerk doesn't check the list. He simply says, "He's in room 40; he's expecting you." The hero follows the bellhop to room 40. When the door opens, he sees a man who is his double, except that he's heavier and older. It is the hero himself, twenty years in the future. The story is science fiction, but it contains an important truth: There's a person in everyone's future. It is the person we are becoming.

What kind of person am I becoming?
To what extent am I more helpful and forgiving today than I was a year ago? Examples?

The great thing in this world
is not so much where we are,
but in what direction we are moving.
                                                                  OLIVER WENDELL HOLMES


Day 52 (Wed)

Final judgment
must wait until the Lord comes...
And then everyone will receive from God
the praise he deserves.
                                                                  I CORINTHIANS 4:5

John was a contractor for a construction company. To increase his personal income, he routinely cheated on materials that went into the homes he built. He was so adept at concealing his shortcuts that he joked to a close friend that even he couldn't detect them once they had been made. John's last construction project before retiring was the one he cheated on most. It was supposed to be a luxury home. Even John worried that he had gone too far this time. Imagine his shock when the company gave him this house as a gift for his years of service.

How is this story a parable of life?
What is one shortcut I could get away with
in what I am currently doing?
What keeps me from taking it?

First we form habits,
then they form us.
Conquer your bad habits,
or they'll eventually conquer you.
                                                                  DR. ROB GILBERT


Day 53 (Thu)

"[The LORD] took note of all my sins
and tied them all together;
[The LORD] hung them around my neck,
and I grew weak beneath the weight."
                                                                  LAMENTATIONS 1:14

There's a moving story that has survived the centuries. It's about Pietri Bandinelli, an attractive young man with clear eyes and a kind face. Leonardo da Vinci chose him to be his Jesus model for his painting The Lord's Supper. Years later, Leonardo had not yet completed the painting. One day, however, the spirit moved him, and he went to the slums of Milan to look for his Judas model. After an hour, he found the perfect man. His eyes were cloudy; his face was harsh. Later, while the man was posing, Leonardo asked him, "Have we met before?" The man said, "Yes, I was your Jesus model. But much has changed in my life since then.

What is the story's point? What lesson might I draw from it for my own life?

I coulda had class.
I coulda been a contender.
I coulda been somebody.
Instead of a bum, which is what I am.
                                                                  ACTOR MARLON BRANDO in On the Waterfront


Day 54 (Fri)

There is nothing
that can be hid from God...
And it is to [God]
that we must all give an account.
                                                                  HEBREW 4:13

In April 1987, baseball Hall of Famer Mickey Mantle took sick on a plane and was rushed from the airport to a hospital. Later, Mickey told an Associated Press reporter about a dream he had in the hospital. He said, "I dreamed I died and went to heaven. Saint Peter greeted me and I said, "I'm Mickey Mantle! He said, 'Really?..I went in to see God, and God said, 'We can't keep you here because of the way you acted. But do me a favor and sign six dozen baseballs.'" When the humor of Mantle's dream subsides, the truth of it emerges. No one will escape God's judgment. And no one will get VIP treatment.

What is one concern I sometimes have
about God's judgment after I die?

When the One Great Scorer comes
To write against your name,
He writes-not that you won or lost-
But how you played the game.
                                                                  GRANTLAND RICE


Day 55 (Sat)

The sins of some people are plain to see,
and their sins
go ahead of them to judgment.
                                                                  I TIMOTHY 5:24

Dr. Wilder Penfield of Montreal's Neurological Institute has made an amazing discovery. Time magazine reported it this way: "Surgeon Wilder Penfield...by chance found brain sites that when stimulated electrically led one patient to hear an old tune... and still another to relive the experience of having her baby." Penfield's findings convince some scientists that every action of our life is recorded in feelings about our actions at the time we did them. (were they good or evil?) are also recorded. In other words, there is now solid physiological support for the biblical teaching of judgment after death.

Albert Camus once said,
"I shall tell you a secret, my friend.
Do not wait for the last judgment.
It takes place every day."
What point was Camus making?

God will not look you over for medals,
degrees, or diplomas, but scars.
                                                                  ELBERT HUBBARD


Day 56 (Sun)

All [the dead] were judged
according to what they had done.
                                                                  REVELATION 20:13

Saint George's chapel in London was built as a memorial to air-raid victims in World War II. In the chapel are four large books containing the names of over 60,000 victims.One page of one book lies open at a time. Each day the page is turned to a new set of names. As you read a name on the page, you have no way of knowing if that person was rich or poor, ugly or fair. Nor does it matter. All that matters is what the person did with the time allotted him or her by God. Poet Phyllis McGinley says: "When I was seven... I wanted to be a tight-rope dancer...At fifteen my ambition was the stage. Now in my sensitive declining years I would give anything.. to be a saint."

How have my goals and ambitions changed over the years? If I could begin my life over, what is one change I would consider making? Why?

It is not only what we do,
but also what we do not do,
for which we are held accountable.
                                                                  MOLIERE


This week's theme:
How does the thought of death impact the way I live?

The famous French aviator Antoine de Saint-Exupery was forced down in the Sahara, a thousand miles from civilization. He had only a meager water supply. Repairing his damaged engine, with one eye on his vanishing water supply, Saint-Exupery came face-to-face with death. His close brush with death reminds us of John McLelland's words in The Clown and the Crocodile: "One day a group of people will go to a cemetery, hold a brief service, and return home. All except one; that will be you."

"It's too bad that dying is the last thing we do," says Robert Herhold, "because it could teach us so much about life."

This week's meditations focus on death. The grace you ask of God before each daily meditation is:

Lord,
teach me about death,
that it may teach me about life.


Day 57 (Mon)

[Jesus said,]
"Believe in God and believe also in me.
There are many rooms in my Father's house,
and I am going to prepare a place for you..
I will come back and take you to myself,
so that you will be where I am.
                                                                  JOHN 14:1-3

A king gave his favorite jester a magic wand, saying, "Keep this until you find a fool bigger than yourself." Years later the king lay dying. He called his favorite jester and said, "I'm going on a long journey." The jester asked, "Where to?" The king replied, "I'm not sure!" The jester said, "When will you return?" The king replied, "Never!" "Are you prepared for the journey?", the jester asked. "Not at all," answered the king. "Then take this magic wand," said the jester. "It belongs to you."

What was my closest call with death?
How prepared am I for the journey the king is referring to?
What could I tell God about my preparedness for death?

There is no death!
The stars go down to rise on some fairer shore.
                                                                  J.l. McCREERY


Day 58 (Tue)

God said to him,
'You fool! This very night
you will have to give up your life.' "
                                                                  LUKE 12:20

Three student devils were preparing to go to earth for some on-the-job training. The teacher asked them what strategy they had decided to use to get people to sin. The first devil said, "I think I'll use the tried-and-true approach. I'll tell people, 'There's no God, so enjoy life.'" The teacher nodded approvingly. Then he turned to the second devil and said, "What about you?" The second devil said, "I think I'll use a more up-to-date approach. I'll tell people, 'There's no hell, so enjoy life.' " Again, the teacher nodded approvingly. Then he turned to the third devil and said, "What about you?" The third devil said, "I think I'll use a more down-to-earth approach. I'll simply tell people, 'There's no hurry, so enjoy life."

Which approach tempts me most?

I can't be prepared for death too soon,
because I can't be sure
when too soon will be too late.
                                                                  ANONYMOUS


Day 59 (Wed)

"Listen! I am coming like a thief!' "
                                                                  REVELATION 16:15

A merchant in ancient Baghdad sent his servant to the market to buy supplies. Minutes later the servant returned, trembling. He said, "Master! Master! As I walked through the market, I was jostled by someone in the crowd. When I looked up, I saw it was Death. He peered at me threateningly. Lend me your fastest horse that I may flee to far-off Samarra. He will never think of looking for me there." The merchant obliged. Then the merchant went to the market. Lo and behold, who should he see but Death. "Why did you give my servant such a threatening look?" The merchant asked. "That wasn't a threatening look," said Death. "It was a look of surprise. I was amazed to see your servant here in Baghdad. For I had a date with him tonight in far-off Samarra."

How would I react if I learned I had a date with death tonight?

The dark background
which death supplies
brings out the tender colors of life
in all their purity.
                                                                  GEORGE SANTAYANA


Day 60 (Thu)

[Jesus said,]
"The sorrow in my heart is
so great that it almost crushes me."
                                                                  MATTHEW 26:15

Al Dewlen was standing over a messy workbench, trying to decide what job to do before supper. Suddenly he heard his name. He looked up and saw his wife and the pastor of his church. Al's jaw dropped. "What's wrong?" he asked. "Mike's dead," his wife said. Instantly Al lost contact with reality. His mind flashed back across the years. First, he saw his son Mike playing Little League baseball. Next, he saw him as captain of the high school's football team. Finally, he saw him in his Marine uniform. Mike was a son he was truly proud of. Al said later, "The news left me so shocked that I was unable to speak to my wife or even take her in my arms."

Can I imagine my family's reaction to my death?
Which family member would I choose to say good-bye to if I could choose only one?
What message would I give him or her for the others?

The gardener asked,
"Who plucked this flower?"
The Master said,
"I plucked it for myself."
and the gardener held his peace.
                                                                  CHILD'S GRAVESTONE IN ENGLAND


Day 61 (Fri)

What can we take out of the world?
                                                                  I TIMOTHY 6:7

In As You Like It, William Shakespeare reviews the seven ages of life:
"At first the infant,
Mewling and puking in the nurse's arms...
Then the whining school-boy, with his satchel
And shining morning face, creeping like snail
Unwillingly to school.
And then the lover,
Sighing like furnace, with a woeful ballad...
Then a soldier,
Full of strange oaths...
Seeking the bubble reputation...
And then the justice..
With eyes severe and beard of formal cut...
The sixth age shifts
Into the lean and slipper'd pantaloon... and his big manly voice,
Turning again toward childish treble, pipes
And whistles in his sound.
Last scene of all,
That ends this strange eventful history,
Is second childishness, and mere oblivion,
Sans teeth, sans eyes, sans tastes, sans everything."

What is Shakespeare's point in his review of the "seven ages of life"?
Why do I think God designed life that way?

Why should a man certain of immortality
think of his life at all?
                                                                  JOSEPH CONRAD


Day 62 (Sat)

This is how it will be
when the dead are raised to life.
                                                                  I CORINTHIANS 15:42

Henry van Dyke portrays death this way:
"I am standing upon the seashore.
A ship at my side spreads her white sails to the morning breeze and starts for the blue ocean. She is an object of beauty and strength, and I stand and watch until at last she hangs like a speck of white cloud just where the sea and sky come down to mingle with each other. Then someone at my side says, 'There! She's gone!' Gone where? Gone from my sight, that is all. She is just as large in mast and hull and spar as she was when she left my side and just as able to bear her load of living freight to the place of destination. Her diminished size is in me, not in her. And just at the moment when someone at my side says, 'There she goes!' there are eyes watching her coming and other voices ready to take up the glad shout,
'Here she comes!' "

How do I understand van Dyke's parable?
When I think of death, do I tend to view it primarily as leaving earth or as going to God? Why?

Ever notice how everybody wants to go
to heaven and nobody wants to die?
                                                                  AUTHOR UNKNOWN


Day 63 (Sun)

"Father!
In your hands I place my spirit!"
                                                                  LUKE 23:46

In Through the Valley of the Kwai, Ernest Gordon describes the death of a young prisoner of war. At first, the youth struggle with the idea of death. Gordon writes: "I had brought my Bible with me...and in the dim light of the hut I began to read.. 'Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff comfort me.'" When Gordon finished reading, he looked at the dying youth. He write: "His gray eyes were far away. He was listening within himself- to the message those words had brought." Then the boy turned to Gordon and said with perfect calm, "Everything is going to be all right." The boy was now ready to meet his Lord.

In my mind's eye, how do I image
the kind of death I would like to have?
Have I ever been present at a death of someone?
Who? When? What struck me most about the experience?

I'm not afraid to die, honey...
I know the Lord
has his arms wrapped around
this big, fat sparrow.
                                                                  SINGER ETHEL WATERS


This week's theme:
How conscious am I of God's forgiveness of me?

Richard Pindell wrote a short story called "Somebody's Son."
It opens with a runaway boy writing a letter home to his mother.
He expresses the hope that his old-fashioned father will forgive him and accept him again as his son.
The boy writes:
"In a few days I'll be passing our property.
If Dad'll take me back, ask him to tie a white cloth on the apple tree in the field next to our house."

Days later the boy is seated on a train, rapidly approaching his house.
Soon the tree will be visible around the next bend. But the boy can't bring himself to look at it.
He's afraid the white cloth won't be there.
Turning to the man sitting next to him , he says, nervously, "Mister, will you do me a favor?
Around the bend on the right, you'll see a tree. See if there's a white cloth tied to it."

As the train rumbles past the tree, the boy stares straight ahead.
Then in a quaking voice he asks, "Mister, is a white cloth tied to one of the branches of the tree?"
The man answers in a surprised voice, "Why, son, there's a white cloth tied to practically every branch!"

That story is a parable of God's great forgiveness of us.
This week's meditations focus on this forgiveness. The grace you ask for is:

Lord, help me see
that there is a wideness in your mercy
like the wideness of the sea.


Day 64 (Mon)

"How can I give you up?"
                                                                  HOSEA 11:8

The prophet Hosea speaks of God's love and forgiveness in a touching way.
Speaking in God's name, he says:
"When Israel was a child, I loved him and called him out of Egypt...
But the more I called to him,
the more he turned away from me...
Yet I was the one
who taught Israel to walk...
How can I abandon [Israel]?
My heart will not let me do it!
My love for you is too strong.
I will not punish you in my anger...
For I am God and not man.
I, the Holy One, am with you.
I will not come to you in anger."
                                                                  HOSEA 11:1-3,8-9

How does this passage impact me when I reread it in a whisper,
imagining that God is saying my name in place of the words in italics (referring to Israel)?

[Lord,] your goodness and love
will be with me all my life;
and your house will be my home
as long as I live.
                                                                  PSALM 23:6


Day 65 (Tue)

"Can a woman forget her own body
and not love the child she bore?
Even if a mother should forget her child,
I will never forget you."
                                                                  ISAIAH 49:15

A woman dropped a beautiful orange vase on the floor; it splintered into dozens of pieces. She swept them up and threw them into the wastebasket. An hour later she found her little daughter had retrieved the pieces and pasted them on a piece of cardboard. Then, using a green crayon, she had drawn stems and leaves on each piece, converting them into a bouquet of lovely flowers. The woman was moved to tears. Where she had seen trash, her daughter had seen treasure. In a similar way, God retrieves us from the wastebasket of sin and fashions us into something beautiful.

Do I know someone who is messed up but who has a treasure inside?
How might I help this person bring it forth?

The human race would be vastly poorer
if it had not been for men and women
who were willing to take risks
against the longest odds.
                                                                  BERNARD BARUCH


Day 66 (Wed)

"I will forgive their sins and
I will no longer remember their wrongs.
I, the LORD, have spoken."
                                                                  JEREMIAH 31:34

One of the strangest plays in Rose Bowl history occurred in 1929 on New Year's Day. California's Roy Riegels picked up a Georgia Tech fumble and ran it back sixty-five yards in the wrong direction. His own players eventually tackled him. When California tried to punt, Tech blocked the kick and scored a safety, Tech's ultimate margin of victory. At halftime, Riegels expected the worst from Coach Price. But Price didn't mention the wrong-way run. When halftime was over, Price put his hand on Roy's shoulder and said, "The game's only half over. Give it your all!" Roy did.

Price's forgiveness of Roy and God's forgiveness of me invite me to ask,
How forgiving am I when someone crushes one of my dreams as Roy did Price's dream of a Rose Bowl victory?

Forgiveness
is the fragrance the violet sheds
on the heel that crushed it.
                                                                  MARK TWAIN


Day 67 (Thu)

Remove my sin, and I will be clean.
                                                                  PSALM 51:7

A newspaper columnist wrote about a program for removing tattoos-especially gang-related ones-from young people. A surprising thing then happened. Thousands of letters came in from people all over the country for more information on the program. Because of the remarkable response, the Los Angeles School District and a local cable television company produced a film called Untatto You. It told about the dangers of amateur tattoing and showed how difficult it is to remove tattos. The stars of the film were the young people themselves. They talked frankly about why they were tattooed in the first place and why they now wanted the tattos removed.

We've all done things we'd like to erase.
Thanks to God's mercy, this is possible.
How eagerly and often do I turn to
the sacrament of Reconciliation to "untattoo" the past?
Create a pure heart in me, O God,
and put a new and loyal spirit in me..
Give me again the joy that comes
from your salvation, and make me willing
to obey you.
                                                                  PSALM 51:10, 12


Day 68 (Fri)

You have been set free from sin.
                                                                  ROMANS 6:22

A soldier in Indonesia bought a monkey for a pet. Soon he noticed the monkey was sensitive around the waist. Taking a look, he found a raised welt around the monkey's midsection. Pulling back the hair from the welt, he saw the problem. When the moneky was a baby, someone tied wire around its middle and never took it off. The wire was now embedded in the monkey's flesh. That evening the soldier shaved the hair around the wire and carefully removed it. All the while, the monkey lay there with amazing patience, blinking its eyes. As soon as the operation was over, the moneky jumped up and down, leaped on the soldier, and hugged him tightly.

The pain of confessing sin is nothing
compared to the pain of being held bound by it.
Can I recall a time when God freed me
from some sin that held me bound and in pain?
To what extent was my reaction like the monkey's?

Sins cannot be undone, only forgiven.
                                                                  IGOR STRAVINSKY


Day 69 (Sat)

When I did not confess my sins,
I was worn out from crying...
Then I confessed my sins to you;
I did not conceal my wrongdoings.
You forgave all my sins.
                                                                  PSALM 32:3,5

Years ago This Week magazine carried a moving story about a seventeen-year-old Dutch boy. He was a prisoner who had escaped from a Nazi camp during World War II. He was caught and sentenced to death. Shortly afterward, he wrote to his father: "Read this letter alone, and then tell Mother carefully... In a little while at five o'clock it is going to happen.. one moment, and then I shall be with God... Is that, after all, such a dreadful transition?... I feel so strongly my nearness to God. I am fully prepared to die... I have confessed all my sins... and have become very quiet.
[Signed] Klees"

Blessed is the person who will be able to say at death what Klees said.
If I died right now, could I say what he did?
When did I experience a quiet peace, such as Klees did?

Those who forgive most shall be most forgiven.
                                                                  ENGLISH PROVERB


Day 70 (Sun)

You have taken away my sorrow
and surrounded me with joy.
                                                                  PSALM 30:11

British violinist Peter Cropper was invited to Finland for a special concert. As a personal favor, the Royal Academy of Music lent Peter their priceless 285-year-old Stradivarius violin. That violin was known the world over for its incredible sound. At the concert, a nightmare happened. Going on stage, Peter tripped and fell. The violin broke into several pieces. Peter flew home to England in a state of shock. A master craftsperson, Charles Beare, spent endless hours repairing the violin. Then came the moment of truth. What would the violin sound like? Those present couldn't believe their ears. The violin's sound was better than before.

The story of that violin is my story.
Sin nearly destroyed me; but God, the master craftsperson,
repaired me. My sound is now more beautiful than it was before.
What is one way the experience of having sinned and been forgiven made
"my sound more beautiful"?
What ought I to give God in return for what God has given me?

True repentance is to cease to sin.
                                                                  SAINT AMBROSE


Daddy Long Legs is the story of an orphan girl who receives gifts from an unknown person. She grows through childhood and her teen years blessed with opportunities provided by her secret "parent." She tries to imagine what this wonderful person is like.

Then one day she discovers the identity of her benefactor. Her joy overflows! And as you share her excitement, you think, "How sad it would have been for her to go through life without having met or thanked this gracious person."

The story of Daddy Long Legs is a parable of God and each one of us. God gave us the gift of life, and God continues to give us gift upon gift. How sad it would be for us to go through life without having met or thanked our Benefactor.

This week's meditations focus on gratitude to God. The grace you ask before each meditation is beautifully expressed in these words by George Herbert:

O Thou who has given me so much,
mercifully grant me one thing more-
a grateful heart. (slightly adapted)


Day 71 (Mon)

[Jesus told ten lepers,]
"Go and let the priests examine you."
On the way they were made clean...
[Only one came back]
to give thanks to God.
                                                                  LUKE 17:14,18

In his book Who Needs God? Harold Kushner tells about a man who disciplined himself to write "thank you" in the lower left-hand corner of the checks he wrote to pay his bills. He wrote it on his checks to the grocer, the phone company, the gas company, the electric company-even on his checks to IRS. He didn't do this because he thought these companies would be impressed. He knew better than that. He did it simply as his personal way of reminding himself to be grateful for living in a free country and for all the services this freedom brought.

What system do I have to keep myself from taking for granted the blessings that God and others bestow on me daily? What system might I devise for this?

Unexpressed gratitude
is like winking at someone in the dark.
You know how you feel about them,
but they don't.
                                                                  ANONYMOUS


Day 72 (Tue)

Sing to God
with thanksgiving in your hearts
                                                                  COLOSSIANS 3:16

Marathon runner Bill Rodgers was a conscientious objector to the Vietnam War. He was assigned to alternative service in a home for retarded men. One of those special men was named Joe. He had the ability to focus on the good in life and be grateful for it. Bill says: "Whenever I saw Joe, he seemed to be wearing a big welcome-to-my-world smile. When I glimpsed him at therapy sessions or workshops, he was participating wholeheartedly, eager to learn and grow... The smallest act of kindness... made him brim with gratitude. Joe found reasons to be grateful even in the most trying circumstances."

How well do I keep my focus on the good in life rather than on the bad?
What system might I devise for this?

Some complain
that God put thorns on roses;
others give thanks
that God put roses among thorns.
                                                                  ANONYMOUS


Day 73 (Wed)

Be thankful in all circumstances.
                                                                  I THESSALONIANS 5:18

Corrie ten Boom and her sister Betsie were put behind barbed wire during World War II for helping Dutch Jews. One day they were moved to a shelter completely infested with fleas. Corrie became depressed, but Betsie recalled a passage from Saint Paul: "Be thankful in all circumstances." So they kneeled down and thanked God for their new shelter, fleas and all. In the weeks ahead, they enjoyed a remarkable lack of supervision from the guards. They were able to talk freely-even read and discuss the Bible with other prisoners. One day Corrie learned why. Someone called the guards to come in and settle a dispute. They refused, saying, "'You settle it. We're not entering that flea bag." Now Corrie understood why the prisoners enjoyed so much freedom. And her mind went back to the day when she and Betsie gave thanks for their shelter, fleas and all. Gratitude is a sign of noble souls.
                                                                  AESOP


Day 74 (Thu)

I will proclaim [God's] greatness
by giving [God] thanks.
                                                                  PSALM 69:30

Mention Bugs Bunny and people smile. Mention Charlie Jones and people frown. But Bugs Bunny owes his popularity to Charlie Jones. In the 1930s, Jones was a struggling artist in Warner Brothers Studio. He took over the Bugs Bunny project and developed it into one of Hollywood's best-loved cartoons. About the same time, Walt Disney created the famous "Three Little Pigs" cartoon. Jones wrote Disney a letter of congratulations. Disney was so grateful that he wrote a thank-you note back. Years later, Disney lay dying in a hospital; Charlie visited him. During the visit, Disney recalled the letter Jones had written him thirty years earlier. He thanked him again. "I treasure your letter," he told Jones. "You're the only animator who ever wrote to me."

When was the last time I congratulated or thanked a colleague or associate?
What keeps me from doing this more often?

God has two dwellings.
One is in heaven;
the other is in a meek and thankful heart.
                                                                  IZAAK WALTON


Day 75 (Fri)

Sing praise to the LORD,
all.. faithful people!
Remember what the Holy One has done,
and give...thanks!
                                                                  PSALM 30:4

A teacher asked her students, "Which is more important-the sun or the moon?" "The moon!" said little Mary. "Why do you say that?" asked the teacher. "Well," said Mary, "the moon gives us the light at night when we really need it, while the sun give us light during the day, when we really don't need it." After thinking about Mary's response for a minute, we realize that her attitude toward the sun mirrors our attitude toward God. Mary took daylight for granted, forgetting that it came from the sun. In a similar way, we take the gift of life for granted, forgetting that it comes from God.

What is one thing God has given me-
or one thing God has not given me-
that I have taken for granted
and forget to give thanks for?

When every bone in our body aches,
we can, at least, thank God
that we're not a herring.
                                                                  QUIN RYAN (adapted)


Day 76 (Sat)

In the name of our Lord Jesus Christ,
always give thanks for everything
to God the Father.
                                                                  EPHESIANS 5:20

Henry Ward Beecher says: "Imagine someone gave you a dish of sand mixed with fine iron filings. Imagine you search for the filings with your eyes and comb for them with your fingers. But you can't find them. Now imagine that you take a tiny magnet and draw it through the sand. It comes out covered with iron filings." Beecher concludes: "Ungrateful people are like your fingers combing the sand. They find little in life to be thankful for. Grateful people are like the magnet sweeping through the sand. They find hundreds of things"

If God asked me to isolate the three things I am most grateful for in my life, what would they be? Why these?

For the flowers
that bloom about our feet;
For tender grass so fresh and sweet;
For song of bird and hum of bee;
For all things we hear and see,
Father in heaven, we thank thee.
                                                                  RALPH WALDO EMERSON


Day 77 (Sun)

I thank you, LORD, with all my heart...
LORD, your love is eternal.
Complete the work that you have begun.
                                                                  PSALM 138:1,8

This meditation ends the "First Week" of The Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius. During this First Week you have evaluated how well you are living your life according to the purpose for which God created you. The "Second Week" focuses on how Jesus lived his life according to the purpose for which he was sent into the world. In the words of the Broadway musical Godspell, the Second Week invites you to get to know Jesus more clearly so that you may love him more dearly and follow him more nearly.

Doing the best thing at this moment
puts you in the best place
for the next moment.
                                                                  OPRAH WINFREY



Last week was the last of the "First Week"of The Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius, which comprised of twelve weeks focusing on the mystery that in spite of our sinfulness, the Trinity- Father, Son, and Holy Spirit- loves us beyond anything we can imagine.

This week starts the "Second Week" of The Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius. It focuses on this great mystery: The second person of the Trinity, in the person of Jesus, took flesh and lived among us.

This week's theme:
Why did Jesus live among us? (incarnation)

Mark Twain wrote a story called "The Terrible Catastrophe." It concerns a group of people who get trapped in a terrible situation. They are doomed to die. There is no way they can escape.

Mark Twain didn't want the story to end unhappily, but he didn't see how he could save the people. So he concluded his story with these two sentences: "I have these characters in such a fix that even I can't get them out of it. Anyone who thinks he can is welcome to try."

Two thousand years ago, the human race was trapped like Twain's characters. Sin had entered the world and was spreading out of control. God saw the situation and didn't want it to end tragically. God loved us too much for that. So the second person of the Trinity came among us to save us.

It is this great mystery that you ponder this week. The grace you ask for is this:

Lord, of thee three things I pray:
To see thee more clearly,
Love thee more dearly,
Follow thee more nearly.


Day 78 (Mon)

[God sent an angel to Nazareth to a girl named Mary.] The angel said..."You will become pregnant and give birth to a son, and you will name him Jesus."
                                                                  LUKE 1:30-31

A college student wrote: "Today I saw a water lily growing in a pond. It had the purest yellow I'd ever seen. The lily-a precious treasure- was unconcerned about whether anyone noticed its astounding beauty. As I sat there, watching it unfold its petals noiselessly, I thought of Mary pregnant with Jesus. She, too, was a precious treasure. She, too, was unconcerned about whether anyone noticed for astounding beauty. But to those who did, she shared a secret. Her beauty came not from her, but from the Jesus life unfolding its petals noiselessly within her."

If I were God, what would I look for
in the one who would parent my Son?

Welcome all wonders in one sight!
Eternity shut in a span!
Summer in Winter, Day in Night!
Heaven in earth and God in man!
                                                                  RICHARD CRASHAW


Day 79 (Tue)

[Emperor Augustus ordered the people to return to their birthplace to register for a census. Joseph went to Bethlehem with Mary, where she] gave birth to her first son, wrapped him in cloths and laid him in a manger- there was no room for them to stay in the inn.
                                                                  LUKE

Author Morton Kelsey writes:
"I am very glad that the divine child
was born in a stable, because my soul
is very much like a stable,
filled with strange unsatisfied longings,
with guilt and animal-like impulses...
If the holy One could be born
in such a place,
the holy One can be born in me also.
I am not excluded."

Do I have any special reason
for being "glad that the divine child
was born in a stable"?
Why would God pick such a birthplace?

Christmas is a good time
to get a little crazy.
After all, God did.
God became a human being.
That's pretty crazy.
                                                                  JIM AUER


Day 80 (Wed)

We write to you about the Word of life, which has existed from the very beginning. We have heard it...seen it.. and our hands have touched it.
                                                                  I JOHN 1:1

In his poem "A Kind of Prayer,"
Cyril Egan describes a person searching frantically for something.
The person looks high and low. One day a friend asks,
"Tell me! What are you looking for?"
The person replies, "I'm looking for God."
Then the person adds quickly:
"Don't tell me I'll find him in my heart (though in a sense that's true);
and don't tell me I'll find him in my fellow man (though in a sense that's true, too)
What I'm looking for is a God making a five-sense breakthrough to humanity.
The God for whom the person was looking entered human history 2,000 years ago in the town of Bethlehem.

What are some reasons why I am glad that God made a "five-sense breakthrough" into human history?

What we need is people who know God
other than by hearsay.
                                                                  THOMAS CARLYLE(slightly adapted)


Day 81 (Thu)

Of his own free will he gave up all.. and appeared in human likeness.
                                                                  PHILIPPIANS 2:7

A woman was seated by a fireplace, thinking about Christmas. The whole thing seemed absurd. Why would God take flesh and live among us? Then she heard a noise outdoors. She saw a dozen geese groping about in the snow-cold and confused. She went outside and tried to herd them into her warm garage. But the more she tried to help them, the more they scattered across the lawn. Finally she gave up. Then an odd thought came to her: "If just for a minute I could become a goose and talk to them in their language, I could explain that what I was trying to do was for their happiness." Then it struck her. That's what Christmas is all about! It's about God becoming a human to teach us what is for our happiness.

What one thing Jesus taught is for our happiness do I sometimes questions? Why?

A Christmas candle is a lovely thing;
It makes no noise at all.
But softly gives itself away;
While quite unselfish, it grows small.
                                                                  EVA K. LOGUE


Day 82 (Fri)

[Jesus] reflects the brightness of God's glory.
                                                                  HEBREW 1:3

A Peanuts cartoon shows Linus saying to Charlie Brown, "That's ridiculous!" Charlie replies, "Maybe so! But come and see for yourself." They go into the living room where Snoopy is sitting on the TV set. His ears are pointed up and out like an antenna. Charlie says, "See! It does make the picture better." An amazed college girl said of this cartoon, "If Jesus were living today, he might use it as a parable to clarify his relationship to the Father." Her point is this: As Snoopy gave Charlie and Linus a clearer image on the TV screen, so Jesus gives us a clearer image of God. The Scriptures express it this way:
"[Jesus} reflects the brightness of God's glory and is the exact likeness of God's own being." (HEBREWS 1:3)

In what way, especially, does Jesus give me a clearer image of God?

He wakes desires you never may forget;
He shows you stars you never saw before.
                                                                  ALFRED LORD TENNYSON


Day 83 (Sat)

"I am the light of the world... Whoever follows me will have the light of life and will never walk in darkness."
                                                                  JOHN 8:12

The book Night Flight deals with the early years of aviation. It describes the adventures of aviators who used to fly at night, without radar or radio. The book is not only a gripping story about the early years of aviation but also an instructive parable about the human situation before Jesus' coming. Life was a mystery. We didn't know where we came from or where we were going. We were like night fliers lost in darkness and fog. Then Jesus came into the world. Jesus did not take away the fog and the night. He did something more incredible. He got into the plane with us. We are no longer flying blind through night and fog. We have a copilot sitting beside us.

How frequently and concerning what, especially, do I consult my copilot sitting beside me? Of the four steps in the prayer process (read,think, speak, listen), which do I find most satisfying when I communicate with Jesus? Why?

Sun of my soul! Thou Savior dear,
It is not night if Thou be near.
                                                                  JOHN KEBLE


Day 84 (Sun)

[Christ] left you an example.. that you would follow in his steps.
                                                                  1 PETER 2:21

A prince had a crooked back that kept him from being the kind of prince he wanted to be. One day the king had a sculptor make a statue that portrayed the prince with a straight back. He placed it in the garden. When the prince saw it, he meditated on it and desired to be like it. Soon people began to say, "The prince's back is getting straighter." When the prince heard this, he began to spend hours meditating on the statue. That story is a parable of you and me. We too were born to be a princess or a prince, but a defect kept us from being what we were meant to be. Then God sent Jesus to show us how we can become what we were meant to be. What do the king, the prince, the prince's crooked back, the statue, and studying the statue stand for in the parable? What does the parable say to me?

Be a Carpenter we were made,
and only by that Carpenter can we be remade.
                                                                  DESIDERIUS ERASMUS


This week's theme:
How did Jesus differ from other leaders? (Call of the King)

The novel The Apostle takes place in Rome in the early days of Christianity. It describes a large group of Christians imprisoned in a dark dungeon. They are to remain there indefinitely, until they will be hauled up through a ceiling door to be executed for their faith. The mood is one of deep sadness.

One day the ceiling door opens, and a shaft of light pierces the darkness as another Christian is lowered to await execution. Amazingly, he is singing at the top of his voice. "Who is this man?" everyone asks. Then word spreads rapidly. "It is the apostle Paul."

Paul's joyful presence is so contagious that soon everyone starts singing. In seconds, the dungeon is changed from a place of sadness to one of joy. It is this kind of change that the presence of Jesus had on our world.

This week's meditations focus on the presence and the leadership of Jesus in our world. Specifically, they focus on the invitation Jesus makes to us to join him in the work of building up God's Kingdom in our world. The grace you ask for is this:

Lord, give to my ears the sensitivity
to hear the voice of Jesus,
and give to my heart the generosity
to do whatever Jesus asks of me.


Day 85 (Mon)

[Jesus] was humble and walked the path of obedience- all the way to death.
                                                                  PHILIPPIANS 2:8

"Here is a young man who was born...of a peasant woman...
He worked in a carpenter shop until he was thirty...
He never owned a home. He never went to college...
He had no credentials but himself.
While he was still a young man, the tide of public opinion
turned against him. His friends ran away..
He was nailed to a cross between two thieves..
When he was dead, he was laid in a borrowed grave...
Nineteen centuries have come and gone.
and today he is the leader of the column of progress.
I am far within the mark when I say that all the armies that ever marched,
and all the kings who ever reigned, put together, have not affected
the life of man upon this earth as has that One Solitary Life."
                                                                  AUTHOR UNKNOWN

How do I explain Jesus' impact on history?

People want to know how much you care
before they care how much you know.
                                                                  JAMES E HIND


Day 86 (Tue)

[Jesus said,] "The Son of Man did not come to be served; he came to serve."
                                                                  MARK 10:45

"The Watermelon Hunter" is an Islamic parable about a traveler who strayed into the "Land of the Fools." Outside a village, he saw people fleeing in terror from a field. They were shouting hysterically, "A monster is in our field!" The traveler drew nearer and saw the monster was only a watermelon, something the fools had never seen. To show how fearless he was, the traveler sliced up the melon and ate it. When the people saw this, they grew even more hysterical, shouting, "He's worse than the monster!" Months later another traveler strayed into the "Land of the Fools," and the same scene repeated itself. This time the traveler didn't play the hero. Instead, he took up residence among the fools and taught them about watermelon. They eventually cultivated and ate them.

How does this story mirror a difference between Jesus and many other leaders?

[Jesus said,]" Learn from me,
because I am gentle and humble in spirit."
                                                                  MATTHEW 11:29


Day 87 (Wed)

[Even Jesus' opponents said,] "Nobody has ever talked the way this man does!"
                                                                  JOHN 7:46

H.G. Wells was asked to pick history's greatest leader. Although he was not a Christian, Wells picked Jesus. He said he realized that many people believe Jesus is divine, but a historian must disregard this fact. He has to stick to uncontested facts. Wells picked Jesus because of two great ideas Jesus released: the Fatherhood of God (all have a common origin) and the Kingdom of God (all have a common destiny). Wells said these ideas sparked "one of the most revolutionary changes of...human thought...The historian's test of an individual's greatness is 'What did he leave to grow?' Did he start men to thinking along fresh lines with a vigor that persisted after him? By this test Jesus stands first."

What challenge does Jesus pose for me?

Be a disciple!
Care more than others think necessary.
Trust more than others think wise.
Serve more than others think practical.
Expect more than others think possible.
                                                                  ANONYMOUS


Day 88 (Thu)

I am the way, the truth, and the life."
                                                                  JOHN 14:6

Napoleon and General Bertrand were discussing Jesus. Bertrand said Jesus was just a great human leader. Napoleon disagreed, saying: "I know men, and I tell you Jesus Christ is not a man...I have so inspired multitudes that they would die for me... A word from me, then the sacred fire was kindled in their hearts. I do indeed, possess the secret of this magical power that lifts the soul, but I could never impart it to anyone. None of my generals ever learned it from me; nor have I the means of perpetuating... love for me in the hearts of men." Napoleon's point is a good one. Other leaders can only excite us. They cannot reach inside themselves and take a part of their own spirit and then place it inside us. Jesus can. And this is where Jesus differs from all other human leaders.

What part of Jesus' spirit should I seek?

It is Christ in you that lives your life,
that helps the poor, that tells the truth,
that fights the battle, and
that wins the crown.
                                                                  PHILLIPS BROOKS


Day 89 (Fri)

[Jesus said,] "I am the vine, and you are the branches. Whoever remains in me, and I in him, will bear much fruit."
                                                                  JOHN 15:5

Jesus is uniquely different from all other human leaders. Other leaders can impact us only psychologically. That is, they can inspire us. Jesus can impact us not only psychologically but also mystically. What does this mean? It means that other leaders can only inflame our emotions and excite our imagination. They cannot transfuse us with their own personal spirit, power, and strength. This is precisely what Jesus can do. Jesus can put his spirit inside us. He can share his power with us. He can enter our minds and our hearts and help us become what we could never become alone.

How might I open myself more fully to Jesus'
transforming power and spirit?

"Listen! I stand at the door and knock;
if anyone hears my voice and opens the door,
I will come into his house and eat with him,
and he will eat with me."
                                                                  REVELATION 3:20


Day 90 (Sat)

"Wherever you go, I will go;
wherever you live, I will live.".
                                                                  RUTH 1:16

Imagine the following. A dynamic leader emerges in our world. The leader's charisma cuts across all national and social boundaries. Everyone trusts this person and recognizes that the "hand of God" rests upon this person. Now imagine this leader gives a speech. With compassion and understanding, the leader spells out programs for curbing corruption, reducing drug traffic and crime, revitalizing ghetto areas, reforming the prison system, erasing poverty. Even the most realistic politicians are impressed by the leader's grasp of the problems and insights for dealing with them. The leader ends the address by asking for volunteers at every level and in every area of the proposed programs.

What might keep me from volunteering?
What would motivate me to volunteer?

You see things as they are;
and you ask "Why?"
But I dream things that never were;
and I ask, "Why not?".
                                                                  GEORGE BERNARD SHAW


Day 91 (Sun)

"If anyone wants to come with me, he must forget himself... and follow me."
                                                                  LUKE 9:23

Alan Paton has an inspiring conversation in Oh, But Your Land Is Beautiful. It's between a black person and a white person. Both have put their lives on the line for racial justice in South Africa. When one of them observes that they may end up with a lot of body scars, the other says: "Well, look at it this way. When I get there, the great Judge will say, 'Where are you scars?' And if I haven't any, he will ask, 'Were there no causes worthy of getting scars?' "

What is one scar from one worthy cause that the "great judge" will see on me when I "get there"?

Far better is it
to dare mighty things,
to win glorious triumphs,
even though checkered by failures,
than to rank with those poor spirits
who neither enjoy much nor suffer much
because they live in the gray twilight
that knows neither victory nor defeat.
                                                                  THEODORE ROOSEVELT


This week's theme:
Why did Jesus embrace the lifestyle he did?

On a trip to the Holy Land, James Martin bought a tiny nativity set. When he arrived at the Tel Aviv airport to return home, security was tight. Officials x-rayed each tiny figure in his set, even the infant Jesus. They explained, "We must be sure there's nothing explosive hidden in the set."

Afterward Martin thought, "If those officials only knew the explosive power hidden in that set!" Martin was referring to its "message"-that the Son of God chose to take a human nature, be born in a stable, and live among us as-

-a poor person ("Birds have nests, but the Son of Man has no place" (LUKE 9:58)
-a dishonored person ("The Son of Man...must..be rejected" (LUKE 17:24-25)
-a humble person ("Learn from me.. I am gentle and humble" (MATTHEW 11:29)

The surprising lifestyle Jesus chose differs totally from the one the devil uses to tempt people. For example, on one occasion the devil made this offer: "I will give you all this power and all this wealth" (LUKE 4:6)

This week's meditations focus on the lifestyle of Jesus-and why he chose it- in contrast to the lifestyle the devil proposes to people. The grace you ask for is this:

Lord, help me understand why the devil proposes a lifestyle of attachment,
and help me appreciate why Jesus chose a lifestyle of detachment.


Day 92 (Mon)

[Jesus prayed to the Father for his disciples,] "I do not ask you to take them out of the world, but I do ask you to keep them safe from the Evil One."
                                                                  JOHN 17:15

The famous Chicago fire took place on October 8, 1871, killing over 300 people. That same night, the logging town of Peshtigo, Wisconsin, burned down, killing over 1,300 people. News of the Peshtigo fire, however, did not reach the public immediately, because the telegraph lines burned. Columnist L.M. Boyd says: "When the Peshtigo news finally came through, the papers were so absorbed with the Chicago fire there was little room for the holocaust, which had taken more than four time as many lives." The story of the two fires illustrates that worldly judgments are not always objective or fair.

What is one area of my life where I am currently tempted to be more concerned about the world's judgment than God's?

On Judgment Day
we will all receive our just due.
People honored by the world may rank last;
while people dishonored by the world may rank first.


Day 93 (Tue)

[Jesus said,] "I must...be put to death..." [Peter said,]"God forbid it, Lord!" Jesus turned around and said to Peter... "You are an obstacle in my way, because these thoughts of yours don't come from God, but from man."
                                                                  MATTHEW 16:21-23

On the last page of his book The Magic Maker, poet E.E. Cummings quotes from a letter he wrote to a high school editor. The editor had asked him about the pitfalls that lay in the way of someone interested in pursuing a career in poetry. Cummings described the biggest pitfall: "To be nobody but yourself in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else- it means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting."

How am I fighting the battle that Cummings referred to in his letter- to be the person God made me to be, and not the one the world wants me to be?

We forfeit three-fourths of ourselves to be like other people.
                                                                  ARTHUR SCHOPENHAUER


Day 94 (Wed)

A man said to Jesus, "I will follow you wherever you go." Jesus said to him, "Foxes have holes, and birds have nests, but the Son of Man has no place to lie."
                                                                  LUKE 9:57-58


Day 95 (Thu)

[Jesus said,] "Your heart will always be where your riches are."
                                                                  LUKE 12:34


Day 96 (Fri)

God resists the proud, but gives grace to the humble.." Humble yourselves before the Lord, and [the Lord] will lift you up.
                                                                  JAMES 4:6,10


Day 97 (Sat)

[Jesus said,] "Everyone who makes himself great will be humbled, and everyone who humbles himself will be made great.".
                                                                  LUKE 14:11

The cartoon character Charlie Brown is based on a real person. He worked with juvenile delinquents, often housing them temporarily in his own home. After the real Charlie Brown died in 1983, a friend said of him, "He saw his own life as the doing of daily works of charity in imitation of Christ and the saints." Charles Schulz- the Charlie Brown cartoonist- was a friend of the real Charlie. He sometimes offered Charlie a share in the profits from some cartoon spin-offs, like T-shirts. But Charlie refused. He had no big interest in money. Nor did Charlie go about telling people that he was the real Charlie Brown.

Can I ever recall bragging about myself or seeking recognition from others?
To what extent do I still do it? Why?

Until we lose ourselves
there is no hope of finding ourselves.
                                                                  HENRY MILLER


Day 98 (Sun)

[Jesus said,] "No servant can be the slave of two masters."
                                                                  LUKE 16:13

The film Rosemary's Baby portrays Satan being born into our world. Suppose Satan was actually born into our world. How would we be tempted to follow Satan? Saint Ignatius gives a reply in his meditation "The Two Standards." First, Satan would lead us from a noble striving for security to a wrongful stockpiling of possessions (wealth). Second, Satan would lead us from a noble striving for acceptance to a wrongful striving for recognition (honor). Finally, Satan would lead us from a noble appreciation of our self-worth to a wrongful indulgence in self-love (pride). Jesus' strategy is to protect us from Satan's strategy. Jesus invites us to imitate him and to distance ourselves from wealth, honor, and pride.

Whose lifestyle and strategy- Jesus' or Satan's - am I currently being most influenced by?
How do I feel about this?

It is so stupid of modern civilization to have given up
believing in the devil when [the devil]
is the only explanation of it.
                                                                  RONALD KNOX


This week's theme:
How free am I to follow Jesus?

In Winning by Letting Go, Elizabeth Brenner tells how people in rural India catch monkeys. First they cut a hole in a box. Then they put a tasty nut in the box. The hole is just big enough for the monkey to put its hand through. But once the monkey clutches the nut, its fist is too big to withdraw. So the monkey has two choices: release the nut and go free, or hold on to it and stay trapped. Monkeys often elect to hold on to the nut.

The monkey's situation is not unlike our situation when it comes to following Jesus. We want to follow Jesus more closely, but at the same time we find ourselves wanting to hold on to something that keeps us from doing so.

This week's meditations deal with this dilemma. Their purpose is to help you come to grips with whatever might be keeping you from following Jesus as you would like. The grace you ask before each meditation is this:

Lord, help me let go of whatever is keeping me from following you.


Day 99 (Mon)

Jesus said,] "If your right eye causes you to sin, take it out and throw it away! It is much better for you to lose a part of your body than to have your whole body thrown into hell."
                                                                  MATTHEW 5:29

The medusa is a jellyfish that makes its home in the Bay of Naples, off the Italian coast. A nudibranch snail also makes its home there. Occasionally, the jellyfish swallows the snail. But then something unusual happens. The snail's protective shell keeps the jellyfish from digesting it. At this point, the tiny snail turns the tables on the jellyfish. It starts to eat the jellyfish from the inside. Unless it is expelled, the tiny snail will eventually consume the jellyfish.

Is there a "snail" that I may have ingested into my system and need to expel,
if I am to follow Jesus more closely and live out his plan for me?
What might it be, and how might I expel it?

Those who know others are learned.
Those who know themselves are wise.
                                                                  LAO-TSZE


Day 100 (Tue)

[The Lord says,] "As high as the heavens are above the earth, so high are my ways and thought above yours."
                                                                  ISAIAH 55:9

Bill Havens, a member of the four-man American canoe team, was scheduled to compete in the 1924 Olympics. Then the doctor told him that his wife would give birth to their baby sometime during the games. After pondering the situation, Bill decided his place was with his wife. And so, without fanfare, he withdrew from the canoe team. As it turned out, the team won the gold medal and Bill's wife was late in giving birth to a son, Frank. Bill could have competed and still returned in time for his son's birth. Years passed. In July 1952, a cable arrived for Bill. It was from Helsinki, where the Olympics were in progress. It read: "Dad, I won. I'm bringing home the gold medal you lost while waiting for me to be born."

Can I recall giving up something I had always dreamed of, because it conflicted with a duty to a loved one?

Duty makes us do things well,
but love makes us do them beautifully.
                                                                  E.C. McKENZIE


Day 101 (Wed)

[Jesus said,] "Whoever loses his life for me and for the gospel will save it."
                                                                  MARK 8:35

George Burns made a film called Oh, God! He played the part of God and wore thick glasses and a funny little hat. John Denver played a supermarket employee. One day God appeared to the employee with a message for the world. Getting people to take the message seriously turned out to be next to impossible. The employee found himself on the verge of losing his job. Exasperated, he turned to God and said, "Preaching your word is costing me my job!" God replied, "That's not a bad trade, is it? Lose your job and save the world." It's so easy to get lose in our own little world and to see only our own problems. It's so easy to think only of ourselves and not to think of the greater good of everyone.

To what extent am I prone to get lost in my own little world and let my little problems blind me to the bigger ones of people around me?

To ease another's heartbreak is to forget one's own.
                                                                  MALCOLM MUGGERIDGE


Day 102 (Th)

[A friend said to David,,] "I will always go with you wherever you go, even if it means death."
                                                                  2 SAMUEL 15:21

For thirty years failure dogged Abraham Lincoln. A list of his failures reads:

1832 was defeated for the legislature
1833 failed in business
1836 suffered a nervous breakdown
1843 lost the nomination for Congress
1854 was defeated for the Senate
1856 lost the vice presidential bid

When he was elected president in 1860, Lincoln was prepared for the ordeal of the Civil War years. Another man might have collapsed under its trials. Not Lincoln. He had learned to say yes whatever God had chosen for him: sickness over health, poverty over wealth, dishonor over honor. On Good Friday, 1865, Lincoln said yes to the final choice: a short life over a long one. He was assassinated. How open am I to the option of saying yes to the things Lincoln did, if that is what God has chosen for me?

To love is to know the sacrifices
which eternity exacts from life.
                                                                  JOHN OLIVER HOBBES


Day 103 (Fr)

[Jesus said,] "The seeds that fell on rocky ground stand for those who hear the message and receive it... But...when the time of testing comes, they fall away."
                                                                  LUKE 8:13

Two brothers, Clarence and Robert, committed their lives to Jesus in their youth. Clarence grew up and became a civil rights activist. Working for these rights was hard in the 1960s. Racial tension was high. People staged sit-ins. Police used dogs and fire hoses to disperse them. Robert grew up and became a lawyer. One day Clarence asked Robert for legal help in a civil rights matter. Robert refused, saying it could hurt his political future. When Clarence asked him about his commitment to Jesus, Robert said, "I do follow Jesus, but I'm not going to get crucified like he was." Clarence said, "Robert, you're not a follower of Jesus; you're only a fan."

In what way might I be more of a fan of Jesus than a follower?

The only thing necessary for the triumph of evil is
for good people to do nothing.
                                                                  EDMUND BURKE


Day 104 (Sat)

[Jesus said,] "I was..naked and you clothed me.. Whenever you did this for one of the least..you did it for me."
                                                                  MATTHEW 25:35-36, 39

A king with no heirs invited qualified young people to be interviewed, with a view to succeding him. A poverty-stricken young man felt an inner call to apply. He worked day and night to buy provisions for the journey and clothes for the interview. After weeks of travel, he came to the king's palace. Sitting at the entrances was a beggar in dirty rags, calling out, "Help me, my son!" Filled with pity, the young man gave the beggar his good clothes and the money he had saved for his return trip. Then, with fearful heart, he entered the palace. When he was escorted into the throne room, he was shocked. Seated on the throne was the beggar, wearing the clothes he had just given him. The king smiled and said, "Welcome, my son!""

What keeps me from responding the way the young man did to the poor beggar?

The prince among us are those
who forget themselves and serve [others].
                                                                  WOODROW WILSON


Day 105 (Sun)

[Jesus said,]
"There was once a man who was giving a great feast
to which he invited many people...
But they all began..to make excuses."
                                                                  LUKE 14:16, 18

In his meditation exercises called "Three Classes of People," Saint Ignatius describes three groups of people. Each desires to follow Jesus faithfully, but each has an attachment to something that is a barrier to their desire. The first group might be called the "dreamers." Since they love their attachment too much, they do nothing about it. The second group might be called the "dodgers." They love their attachment deeply, but they decide to go halfway. They decide to pray every day that it won't keep them from following Jesus. The third group might be called the "doers." They also love their attachment. But unlike the first two groups, they decide to do whatever is necessary to rid themselves of it.

Which group of people do I tend to fall into most of the time?

Plunge into the deep without fear-and
with the gladness of April in your heart.
                                                                  RABINDRANATH TAGORE


This week's theme:
Why did Jesus submit to baptism and temptation?

Not far from the Dead Sea there is a shallow spot in the Jordan River. It was used as a crossing for caravans from all over the Near East. People used to gather there to exchange world news.

One day a new attraction sent people to the crossing. A man dressed like the prophets of old began to preach there. His name was John; and he told the people, "Turn away from your sins and be baptized" (LUKE 3:3).

Suddenly Jesus waded into the water to be baptized. John tried to stop him , saying, " ' I ought to be baptized by you...' But Jesus answered him, "Let it be so for now' " (MATTHEW 3:14-15).

And so John baptized Jesus. Then Jesus left the Jordan and went into the desert, "where he was tempted by the Devil" (LUKE 4:2)

This week's meditations focus on Jesus' baptism by John and his temptations by the devil. They invite you to ask, If Jesus was sinless, why did he ask to be baptized? If he was the Son of God, why did he allow the devil to tempt him? The grace you ask for is:

Lord Jesus, teach me
why you were baptized and tempted,
so that I may love you more dearly
and follow you more nearly.


Day 106 (Mon)

[After Jesus was baptized,]
heaven was opened,
and the Holy Spirit came down upon him
in bodily form like a dove.
And a voice came from heaven,
"You are my own dear Son."
                                                                  LUKE 3:21-22

Luke's account of Jesus' baptism contains a beautiful reference to God as Trinity:
-Father ("a voice came from heaven")
-Jesus (" a voice came from heaven")
-Holy Spirit ("bodily form like a dove").
The mystery of the Trinity says that in God are three persons: The Father is God, the Son is God, and the Holy Spirit is God. Yet there are not three Gods, but only one.

Which person of the Trinity do I relate to best:
Father, Son, or Holy Spirit? Why?
Which do I relate to least? Why?

Saint Patrick used the shamrock (one leaf with three petals) to illustrate the mystery of the Trinity. A modern theologian used the chemical compound H2O. It is one substance that exists in three separate forms:
liquid(water),solid(ice), vapor(steam).


Day 107 (Tue)

God looks down from heaven...
Not one [person] does what is right,
not a single one.
                                                                  PSALM 53:2-3

People ask, "Why was Jesus baptized?" Obviously, it was not because he was a sinful human being who needed forgiveness. Rather, it was because he was a member of a sinful human family that needed forgiveness. Jesus asked to be baptized because he had identified himself so totally with the human family. He could not stand apart from it-not even from its sins. Jesus' action reminds us that we, too, are members of the sinful human family. We, too, cannot stand apart from it, especially from its "family" sins- disregard of the poor, neglect of the environment, destruction of human life.

Do "family" sins tend to depress me rather than challenge me?
How involved am I in them, personally?

Racism is yours, end it.
Injustice is yours, correct it...
Ignorance is yours, banish it.
War is yours, stop it...
The dream is yours, claim it.
                                                                  WALTER FAUNTROY


Day 108 (Wed)

[After he was baptized, Jesus] was led by the Spirit into the desert,
where he was tempted by the Devil for forty days.
In all that time he ate nothing, so that he was hungry...
The Devil said to him, "If you are God's Son,
order this stone to turn into bread."
But Jesus answered, "The scripture says,
'Man cannot live on bread alone.' "
                                                                  LUKE 4:1-4

Mary Jo Tully describes what life was like during the Great Depression. She says, "We lived from payday to payday. Mom would often wait for Dad to come home on payday before she could purchase the food for the evening meal. Still, in what he called his 'Irish wisdom,' Dad never came home on payday without something that would feed what he considered a 'deeper need.' One day it might be a bunch of daisies. On another, a box of chocolates. Once it was even an additional mouth to feed- a puppy.".

What "deeper need" do I have besides "bread alone"?
How do I try to satisfy it?

When my spirit soars,
my body falls on its knees.
                                                                  GEORG CHRISTOPH LICHTENBERG


Day 109 (Thu)

The Devil took [Jesus] up and showed him in a second
all the kingdoms of the world.
"I will give you all this power and all this wealth...if you worship me."
Jesus answered, "The scripture says,
'Worship the Lord your God and serve only him.' "
                                                                  LUKE 4:5-8

Joan Mills never knew her father. He died when she was still very young. Her only concrete link with him was a box of his belongings in the attic. One day she felt moved to explore it. She writes: "I read a journal my father started at seventeen...He had left home...and enrolled at Boston University. By midwinter, he had worn out his one pair of shoes and bought books instead of a blanket. He drinks mugs of water to still his hunger. A four-page entry celebrating his discovery of the great poets ends, 'I have not eaten today.' ".

How ready am I to deny my body in favor of my spirit-
and to carry out God's plan for me?

The body, that is but dust;
the soul, it is a bud of eternity.
                                                                  NATHANIEL CULVERWEL


Day 110 (Fri)

[Jesus said,]
"The Son of Man did not come to be served;
he came to serve and to give his life to redeem many people."
                                                                  MARK 10:45

Jesus' temptations preview how he will carry out his mission. First, his refusal to turn stones into bread previews that he will not use his power for his own personal comfort. Rather, he will sweat, hunger, and suffer, just like us. Second, his refusal to throw himself from the Temple and let the angels catch him previews that he hasn't come to be served by others, but to serve them. Finally, his refusal to kneel before the devil, even in exchange for the whole world, previews that he will not barter with evil. God is God; right is right; wrong is wrong. Jesus will die at the hands of evil rather than barter with it.

How do I, sometimes, tend to barter with evil-
or at least, am tempted to do so?

The face of Christ..shows us
the one thing we need to know-
the character of God.
                                                                  P. CARNEGIE SIMPSON


Day 111 (Sat)

We have a High Priest
who was tempted in every way
that we are, but did not sin.
                                                                  HEBREWS 4:15

In 1982 Archbishop Glemp of Warsaw urged Polish young people not to give in to the temptation to stop working for political change in Poland. He told them that he could sympathize with them, because he had been beaten by police in his youth for seeking similar change. Also, his father had been punished for pressing for political change. Just as Archbishop Glemp could appreciate the temptations of the Polish youth, so Jesus can appreciate the temptations that each of us experiences.

What is one temptation I experience?
What might Jesus say about it?

We are no more responsible for the evil thoughts
that pass through our minds than a scarecrow is
for the birds that fly over the seedplot it has to guard.
The sole responsibility in each case
is to prevent them from settling.
                                                                  JOHN CHURTON COLLINS


Day 112 (Sun)

When the Devil finished tempting Jesus
in every way, he left him for a while.
Then Jesus returned to Galilee, and the
power of the Holy Spirit was with Him.'
                                                                  LUKE 4:13-14

Native Americans went on vision quests. They went off alone to pray and fast for days to seek enlightenment from the Spirit. One time a young brave returned from such a quest without enlightenment. An old brave said to him, "You stalked your vision as you stalk deer. Stalking alone does not bring vision; nor does fasting or will power alone. Vision comes as a gift born of humility, wisdom, and patience. If your vision quest taught you only this, it taught you much." As a result of his desert experience, Jesus could say to us what the old brave told the young brave: "When you go off in quest of God's will, remember that the vision' of that will is 'a gift born of humility,wisdom, and patience.' ".

Am I, perhaps, stalking God's will as the young brave stalked his "vision quest"?

With time and patience
the mulberry leaf becomes a silk gown.
                                                                  CHINESE PROVERB


This week's theme:
What did Jesus teach about how I should live?

Tom Dooley captured the imagination of the world in the 1950s. Fresh out of medical school and the navy, he went to Asia to serve among the very poor.

Tom's family was wealthy, and he enjoyed the good life. Commenting on this in Guideposts magazine, he says:
"There was plenty of money; I had my own horse, went to school abroad, studied to be a concert pianist."

But Tom's family was also deeply religious. He wrote:
"We were the prayingest family..
We prayed when we got up...
when we sat down to eat,
when we finished eating,
when we went to bed."

Tom's family was also a Bible-reading family. Tom's favorite Bible reading was the Beatitudes in the Sermon on the Mount. He wrote: "I loved the Beatitudes because they talked about what I was interested in. Blest means 'happy,' and that's just what I wanted to be. Here were the rules for happiness."

This week's meditation exercises focus on the Beatitudes. The grace you ask for is:

Father, help me take to heart
your Sons' teachings
that I may know him more clearly,
love him more dearly,
and follow him more nearly.


Day 113 (Mon)

[Jesus said,]
"Happy are those who mourn;
God will comfort them!."
                                                                  MATTHEW 5:4

Tom Dooley was moved to work among Asia's poor while he was in the navy. One day his ship picked up a boatload of sick and wounded refugees drifting off the coast of Vietnam. Tom discovered that the simplest medical treatment brought smiles to their pain-filled faces. He also discovered that helping them made him happier than he'd ever been in his life. After his hitch in the navy, Tom went back to Asia. One day he told a friend that his favorite Beatitude was "Happy are those who mourn." He explained that the word mourn didn't mean "to be unhappy." It meant "to be more aware of sorrow than of pleasure." He added that if you try to alleviate people's sorrow, "you can't help but be happy. That's just the way it is."

How sensitive am I to the sorrow in the lives of people around me?
When was the last time I tried to alleviate someone's sorrow?

Who lives for himself is apt
to be corrupted by the company he keeps.
                                                                  AUTHOR UNKNOWN


Day 114 (Tue)

[Jesus said,]
"Blessed are you the poor in spirit,
for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."
                                                                  MATTHEW 5:3 (NRSV)

The movie Quo Vadis, starring Deborah Kerr, dealt with the persecution of Christians in ancient Rome. One day, after a dangerous filming session, a reporter asked Deborah, "Weren't you afraid when the lions rushed you in the arena?" Deborah replied, "Not at all! I'd read the script, and I knew I'd be rescued." This is the kind of childlike trust that the "poor in spirit" had in God in Jesus' time. To be "poor in spirit" meant to be detached from material things and attached to God alone. It meant to put all one's trust in God rather than in material things. To be "poor in spirit" meant to have and to value only one possession: God.

To what extent-and why- do I tend to seek happiness and put my trust in things rather than in God?

We are rich
in proportion to the number of things
we can do without.
                                                                  HENRY DAVID THOREAU (slightly adapted)


Day 115 (Wed)

[Jesus said,]
"Happy are those who are merciful to others;
God will be merciful to them!"
                                                                  MATTHEW 5:7

An American and a Japanese embraced in a Tokyo airport. The last time they met was forty years ago in an Okinawan cave. At that time, the American, Ponich, was holding a child who had been shot in both legs. The Japanese, Ishiboshi, leaped out of the darkness and aimed his rifle at Ponich. There wasn't a thing Ponich could do, so he lay the child down, took out his canteen, and began to wash the wounds. An amazed Ishiboshi lowered his rifle. When Ponich finished, he bowed to Ishiboshi in gratitude and carried the child to an American field hospital. In 1985 Ponich wrote a letter to a Tokyo newspaper to thank the unknown soldier who mercifully spared his life forty years earlier. Ishiboshi saw the letter, and the paper arranged their reunion.

What is an opportunity I have, right now, for showing mercy to another?

We cannot, indeed, give like God,
but surely we may forgive like [God].
                                                                  LAURENCE STERNE


Day 116 (Thu)

[Jesus said,]
"Happy are those who work for peace;
God will call them [God's] children!"
                                                                  MATTHEW 5:9

Jim McGinnis tells how two brothers were screaming at each other as they played on the sidewalk in front of his house. One was on a tricycle; the other was blocking the path of the tricycle. Jim asked the boys if they were having fun. They said that they were not. Then he asked the boys what they might do to have fun. "We could take turns riding the tricycle for about ten minutes each," said the one child. When Jim offered to time their rides, they both smiled and got all excited. The younger one even offered to let his older brother ride first.

When two people are screaming, do I use the occasion to prove I can scream, too?
Or do I use the occasion to prove there's a better way to settle disputes?

It takes two sides to make a lasting peace,
but it takes only one to take the first step.
                                                                  EDWARD M. KENNEDY


Day 117 (Fri)

[Jesus said,]
"Happy are you when people insult you and persecute you...
because you are my followers."
                                                                  MATTHEW 5:11

German submarine commander Martin Niemoller was awarded the Iron Cross for his service in World War I. After the war he studied for the ministry and was ordained. Before World War II, Niemoller backed the Nazi party. But when he saw the direction it began to take, he denounced it publicly, was arrested, and was sent to a concentration camp. Miraculously, he survived eight years of imprisonment. After the war, he lectured in behalf of world peace. At one talk he was brutally heckled and insulted for asking pardon of the Jews. He reacted by imitating Jesus disciples, who rejoiced that God "considered them worthy to suffer disgrace for the sake of Jesus." (ACTS 5:41)

How do I react when I am belittled or insulted?
What keeps me from reacting as Jesus taught his disciples to do?

Ignore people who belittle you;
they're only trying to cut you down to their size.
                                                                  ANONYMOUS


Day 118 (Sat)

[Jesus said,]
"Happy are those whose greatest desire is
to do what God requires;
God will satisfy them fully!"
                                                                  MATTHEW 5:6

The great American concert violinist Fritz Kreisler said: "I was born with music in my system. It was a gift from God. I didn't acquire it. So I do not even deserve thanks for the music. Music is too sacred to be sold, and the outrageous prices charged by musical celebrities today are truly a crime against society. I never look upon the money I earn as my own. It is public money. It is only a fund entrusted to me for proper disbursement. My beloved wife feels exactly as I do.. In all these years of my so-called success in music we have not built a house for ourselves. Between it and us stand all the homeless in the world."

How fully do I agree with Kreisler?

Serve one another with whatever gift
each of you has received.
                                                                  1 PETER 4:10 (NRSV)


Day 119 (Sun)

[Jesus said,] "Happy are the pure in heart;
they will see God!"
                                                                  MATTHEW 5:8

One Halloween night, Tom Lewis was trying-with little success- to prepare a talk. He was constantly interrupted by a parade of trick-or-treat children. Toward the end of the night, Tom ran out of candy and cookies. He prayed that the doorbell would not ring again. But it did. And there stood his next-door neighbor with her three-year-old child. With total embarrassment, Tom poured out his predicament. And with total compassion and unselfishness, the three-year-old opened her bag of treats and said, "That's okay, Mr. Lewis. I'll give you some of my candy and cookies.'"

Am I more compassionate and unselfish than I used to be? How might I develop these basic ingredients of a pure heart?

People may excite in themselves a glow of compassion,
not by toasting their feet at the fire and saying,
"Lord, teach me more compassion,"
but by going and seeking
an object that requires compassion .
                                                                  HENRY WARD BEECHER


This week's theme:
How ready am I to love as Jesus loved?

In the movie Shadow of the Hawk, a young couple and an Indian guide are making their way up a mountainside. At one point the young woman slumps to the ground and says, "I can't take another step." The young man lifts her to her feet and says, "But, darling, we must go on. We have no other choice." She shakes her head and says, "I can't do it."

Then the Indian guide says to the young man, "Hold her close to your heart. Let your strength and love flow out of your body into hers." The young man does this, and in a few minutes the woman smiles and says, "Now I am ready. I can go on."

We can all relate to that incident. There have been times in life when we, too, thought we couldn't go on. Then someone held us close to their heart and let their strength and love flow into us.

This week's meditations focus on love. The grace you ask for is:

Father, let your knowledge and love of your Son
flow into me,
that I may see him more clearly,
love him more dearly,
and follow him more nearly.


Day 120 (Mon)

Our love
should not be just words and talk;
it must be true love,
which shows itself in action.
                                                                  1 JOHN 3:18

"Metamorphosis" is the story of an unmarried man named Gregor, who lives with his parents and sister. For years he's been a salesman, a slave to his customers and his boss. Although he is laughing on the outside, he is crying on the inside. He feels like an insect. Each night he dreams of his insectlike life. One morning he wakes up to discover that he's become what he feels like: a giant cockroach. The tragedy is that the only way Gregor can become human again is if he is loved by humans, especially his family. But his appearance makes this impossible. The greater part of the story deals with Gregor's pathetic efforts to express himself to his family. In the end, he simply gives up and dies.

Who, perhaps, is a "Gregor" in my life?

No greater burden can be borne
by an individual than to know
that no one cares or understands.
                                                                  ARTHUR H. STANBACK


Day 121 (Tue)

Love is patient and kind..
Love never gives up.
                                                                  1 CORINTHIANS 13:4, 7

Alan Loy McGinnis tells this story about the author Dr. Norman Lobsenz. Young Norman's wife was in the midst of a serious illness, and the ordeal was taking its toll on Norman. One night he was on the verge of collapse when, suddenly, he recalled an incident from his childhood. One night when his mother had taken ill, Norman got up around midnight to get a drink of water. As he passed his parents' bedroom, he saw his father sitting in a chair on his mother's side of the bed. She was fast asleep. Norman rushed into the room and cried, "Daddy, is Mom worse?" "No, Norman," his father said softly. "I'm just sitting here watching over her, in case she wakes up and needs something." That long-forgotten incident from his childhood gave Norman all the strength he needed to carry on.

What episode from my childhood is a source of strength to me-even to this day?

The pains of love be sweeter far
Than all other pleasures are.
                                                                  JOHN DRYDEN


Day 122 (Wed)

Love is not...selfish or irritable;
love does not keep a record of wrongs.
                                                                  1 CORINTHIANS 13:5

In an interview just before the 1986 Academy Awards, Barbara Walters asked President and Mrs. Reagan how they had managed to keep their love alive for thirty-five years. As they thought about the question, Barbara tried to help them, asking, "Was it because both of you were so willing to give and take on a 50-50 basis?" The first lady broke into a gentle laugh and said, "Oh my, married life never breaks that evenly. Sometimes it's more like 90-10. So often one of us has to give up so much more than the other." That was a high point in the interview. It made an important point: When it comes to love, you can't keep score. The day two people start to keep score in marriage is the day their marriage starts to die.

Do I consciously or unconsciously tend to keep score in my love relationships?

Pure love and prayer are learned in the hour
when prayer has become impossible
and your heart has turned to stone.
                                                                  THOMAS MERTON


Day 123 (Thu)

In the same way
a Levite...walked on by."
                                                                  LUKE 10:32

A woman was standing on a curb, waiting for the light to change. On the opposite curb was a teenage girl. The woman noticed that the girl was crying. When the light changed, each started across the street. Just as they were about to meet, the woman's motherly instincts came rushing to the surface. Every part of her wanted to comfort that girl. But the woman passed her by. She didn't even greet her. Hours later the image of the crying girl still haunted the woman. Over and over she said to herself: "Why didn't I say to her, 'Honey, can I help?' Sure, she might have rejected me. But, so what! Only a minute would have been lost, but that minute would have let her know that someone cared. Instead, I passed her by. I pretended she didn't exist."

Is there someone, right now, to whom I should be reaching out in love?
What might be a first step in doing so?

'Tis better to have loved and lost
than never to have loved at all.
                                                                  ALFRED LORD TENNYSON


Day 124 (Fri)

"As they looked on, a change came over Jesus:
his face was shining like the sun,
and his clothes were dazzling white."
                                                                  MATTHEW 17:2

British TV celebrity Malcolm Muggeridge went to India to film Mother Teresa's nuns working with dying patients. His camera crew didn't anticipate the poor lighting in the building and failed to bring extra lights. So they thought it useless to film the sisters at work. But someone suggested they do it anyway. Maybe some footage would be usable. To everyone's surprise, the film was spectacular. It was illumined by a mysterious light. Muggeridge believes the light resulted from a "glow" of love radiating from the sisters' faces. He sensed this "glow" himself when he first entered the building. He says it was "like the haloes that artists have seen and made visible round the heads of saints." He adds, "I find it not at all surprising that the luminosity should register on photographic film."

Can I recall ever seeing someone "glow" with love"?
What might cause the glow?

Where love is, there is God also.
                                                                  LEO TOLSTOY


Day 125 (Sat)

God will put [God's] angels in charge of you
to protect you wherever you go.
                                                                  PSALM 91:11

Actor Jimmy Stewart describes an incident that took place as his bomber squadron prepared to leave for Europe during World War II. As the last minute ticked away, Jimmy sensed that his father wanted to say something. But nothing came out. Finally, his dad hugged him and left. Only later did Jimmy discover that his father had slipped a letter into his pocket. It went something like this:"Soon after you read this letter, you will be on your way to the worst of dangers. Let us both count on the promise contained in the enclosed psalm..I love you more than I can tell you. [signed] Dad." Jimmy then read the psalm. These words stood out: "God will put [God's] angels in charge of you to protect you wherever you go."

What keeps me from better expressing my love, especially to those closest to me? What person in particular would benefit from my doing this?

There is no security on earth;
there is only opportunity.
                                                                  GENERAL DOUGLAS MACARTHUR


Day 126 (Sun)

"I have been put to death with Christ..
so that it is no longer I who live,
but it is Christ who lives in me."
                                                                  GALATIANS 2:19-20

The musical Man of La Mancha is based on Miguel de Cervantes' novel Don Quixote. Toward the end of the musical, Quixote is dying. At his side is Aldonza, a worthless woman whom he idealized and called Dulcinea. Quixote loved her with a pure love, unlike anything she had previously experienced. When Quixote breathes his last, Aldonza sings "The Impossible Dream." When she finishes, someone shouts, "Aldonza." She replies, "My name is now Dulcinea." Thanks to Quixote's love, the ugly Aldonza had died, and the beautiful Dulcinea was born. Love had transformed a worthless wretch into a wonderful woman.

How does the impact of Quixote's love on Aldonza mirror the impact of Jesus' love on me?
What does all this say to me?

He drew a circle that shut me out-
Heretic, rebel, a thing to flout,
But love and I had the wit to win;
We drew a circle that took him in.
                                                                  EDWIN MARKHAM


This week's theme:
How ready am I to pray as Jesus prayed?

In 1909 Father Francis Keller took a long trip to Gilletee, Wyoming. He had sent a letter to the Catholic settlers there telling them that he would celebrate Sunday Mass with them. Many settlers hadn't seen a priest in years.

After Mass, a man said to Father Keller, "Your train doesn't leave until late tonight. After you've made your rounds, let's take a horseback ride into the hills. They're beautiful this time of the year."

Later the two men rode into the hills. After an hour they saw a woman waving in the distance. As they rode up and she saw Father Keller's collar, a remarkable expression came across her face. She said, "Father, my brother is dying."

Her brother was inside a tent. He was about thirty-five years old and extremely thin. Father Keller heard the man's confession and anointed him. In those days every priest in the West carried a tiny capsule of holy oil for just such an emergency. As soon as the priest finished, the young man closed his eyes in deep peace. He was dead.

Later the woman said to Father Keller, "Nobody told me that you were in Gillette today. But all his life my brother has prayed that a priest would be present at his death. This morning we prayed one last time for this grace."

That incredible story recalls the words of the poet Alfred Lord Tennyson: "More things are wrought through prayer than this world dreams of." The important point about prayer is this: Keep your prayer simple. Whatever confuses or complicates prayer is probably best forgotten. Father Daniel Lord was right when, at the end of his life, he gave this advice to a young person: "Keep your prayer simple. Talk to God as to a father, to Christ as to a brother, and to the Holy Spirit as a constant companion."

This week's meditations focus on prayer. The grace you ask for is:

Lord, teach me to pray that I come to
know you more clearly,
love you more dearly,
and follow you more nearly.


Day 127 (Mon)

[Jesus said,]
"Ask, and you will receive."
                                                                  LUKE 11:9

Bill was turning his young teacher, Mary, into a nervous wreck. One morning before school Mary sat writing something in shorthand. Bill appeared and said, "Whatdaya writing?" Mary replied, "God can do anything, even answer this prayer." With that, Mary stuck the note inside her Bible and turned to write on the board. As she did, Bill stole the note and put it in his book. Years later Bill was sorting through a box of old books and found the note. He took it to the office for his secretary to translate. It read: "Dear God, I can't handle my class with Bill upsetting it. Touch his heart. He's someone who can become either very good or very evil." Bill sat stunned, for only he knew how accurate the prayer was and how well it had been answered.

How do I feel about asking God for help in time of need?

Pray to God, but row to the shore.
                                                                  RUSSIAN PROVERB


Day 128 (Tue)

[Jesus said,]
"When you pray and ask for something,
believe that you have received it, and
you will be given whatever you ask for."
                                                                  MARK 11:24

Jim Johnson was sent to save a failing hotel. The situation was so bad that Jim decided upon desperate measures. Each night he drove to a hill overlooking the hotel. He parked, sat in the car, and prayed for twenty minutes. He prayed for the hotel guests, behind the lighted windows. He prayed for the employees and their families. He prayed for himself. Gradually, changes started to take place in the hotel. A new spirit radiated from its employees. A new warmth greeted each new guest. A new hope permeated the operation. Within a year the hotel was back on its feet. Norman Vincent Peale, who tells the story, ends with this thought: If the prayer of one person could revitalize a hotel, think what the prayer of a nation could do for the world.

What is my reaction to Peale's thought?

Prayers travel more strongly
when said in unison.
                                                                  GAIUS PETRONIUS


Day 129 (Wed)

Pray at all times.
                                                                  1 THESSALONIANS 5:17

French philosopher Blaise Pascal points out that God created us to be sharers in the divine power, not just spectators of it. Sharing in the divine power is one way we share in God's "image and likeness." Pascal points out further that a special way we share in the divine power is by prayer. He draws this parallel: Just as God shares power with us by making us thinking persons, so, too, God shares power with us by making us praying persons. Finally, few of us can impact human events significantly by our thinking but all of us can do so by our praying.

Do I really believe that neglecting God's gift of prayer is as serious as neglecting God's gift of intelligence?

Prayer is the most powerful form of energy
one can generate.
The influence of prayer on the human mind and body
is as demonstrable
as that of secreting glands.
Prayer is a force
as real as terrestrial gravity.
                                                                  Nobel prize winner ALEXIS CARREL


Day 130 (Thu)

[Jesus said to his disciples
in the garden of Gethesemane,]
"The sorrow in my heart is so great
that it almost crushes me..."
He went a little farther on,
threw himself face downward
on the ground, and prayed.
                                                                  MATTHEW 26:38-39

Just before the Battle of Gettysburg, Lincoln became overwhelmed with fear. He knelt and prayed. Later he said, "Never had I prayed with such earnestness. I wish I could repeat my prayer. I felt that I must put all my trust in Almighty God, who alone could save the nation from destruction." When Lincoln stood up, he said, "I felt my prayer was answered...I had no misgiving about the result."

Have I ever felt so overwhelmed with fear or concern that I dropped to my knees to pray?

Like a human parent,
God will help us when we ask for help,
but in a way that will make us
more mature, more real,
not in a way that will diminish us.
                                                                  MADELEINE L'ENGLE


Day 131 (Fri)

Jesus would go away to lonely places,
where he prayed.
                                                                  LUKE 5:16

Adelaide Proctor's poem "A Legend" tells about a monk whose preaching attracted crowds and changed lives. Every time he preached, an old man prayed for him. One day the monk was thanking God for his power to move hearts, when an angel appeared and said to him: "My son, it's not your preaching that lights up hearts and changes people. It's the old man's praying for you." In other words, the monk's preaching might be compared to the electrical cord of a lamp. And the old man's prayer might be compared to the current flowing through it. Both are necessary if the lamp is to light up.

Have I ever prayed that the Sunday sermon would "light up hearts"?
Should I, perhaps, begin this practice?

Prayer is like
the turning of an electric switch.
It does not create the current;
it simply provides the channel
through which the electric current
may flow.
                                                                  MAX HANDEL


Day 132 (Sat)

[Jesus] looked up to heaven.
                                                                  JOHN 17:1

In The Inner Game of Tennis, W. Timothy Galwey points out that when we watch tennis on TV, we see only the outer game: the player's body in action. We don't see the inner game: the player's mind in action. Like tennis, prayer also has two actions or dimensions: body(outer) and mind(inner). The gospel refers to both dimensions of Jesus' prayer: body and mind. Referring to Jesus' body, it says he knelt (LUKE 22:41), raised his eyes to heaven (MARK 7:34), and prayed out loud (MATTHEW 26:42). Referring to his mind, it says he used both spontaneous thoughts from the heart (JOHN 17:1) and memorized thoughts from the psalms (MARK 15:34).

Do I ever experiment with my body in prayer: keeling, raising my eyes,
praying out loud? What are some helpful things I have learned on how to
improve the quality of my prayer?

Egyptian President Anwar Sadat
had a noticeable mark on his forehead.
He developed it by touching
his forehead to the ground so often
during the course of his daily prayer.


Day 133 (Sun)

[Jesus said,} "This, then, is how
you should pray: 'Our Father....'"
                                                                  MATTHEW 6:9

Two things stand out in the Lord's Prayer:
-the word Father and
-the structure of the prayer.
The word for father that Jesus used was Abba, a little affection, much like our word daddy. Jesus taught us to address God with childlike affection and trust. The structure of the Lord's Prayer divides into two sets of requests:
-three "your" petitions-"Hallowed be your name," "your kingdom come," "your will be done" - and
-three "our" petitions- "give us today our daily bread," "forgive us our trespasses," "deliver us form evil."
The "your" petitions look to the Father; the "our" petitions, to ourselves.
That is the proper order for all true prayer.

How faithful am I to the practice of ending my mediations with the Lord's Prayer?
How helpful do I find this?

Hallowed be Thy name, not mine;
Thy Kingdom come, not mine;
Thy will be done, not mine.
                                                                  DAG HAMMARSKJOLD


This week's theme:
How ready am I to serve as Jesus served?

Dr. Elisabeth Kubler-Ross is a former professor of psychiatry at the University of Chicago. She wrote a best-seller called Death and Dying. The book grew out of interviews with hundreds of people who had been declared clinically dead and then revived.

Repeatedly these people report that during their experience they underwent a kind of instant replay of their lives. It was like seeing a movie of everything they had ever done. How did the instant replay affect these people? Did it reveal anything significant?

Commenting on this, Dr. Kubler-Ross says:

"When you come to this point [the moment of leaving this life], you see there are only two things that are relevant: the service you rendered to others and love. All those things we think are important, like fame, money, prestige, and power, are insignificant."

This week's meditations focus on loving service. The grace you ask for is:

Lord, teach me to be generous.
Teach me to serve you as you deserve;
to give and not to count the cost;
to fight and not to heed the wounds;
to toil and not to seek for rest;
to labor and not to ask for reward,
except to know
that I am doing your will.


Day 134 (Mon)

"I was hungry and you fed me."
                                                                  MATTHEW 25:35

An old monk prayed many years for a vision from God. It came one day, just at the minute the monk was scheduled to feed the poor who gathered daily at the monastery gate. If he didn't show up with food, the people would leave, thinking the monastery had nothing to give them that day. The monk was torn between his duty to the poor and his heavenly vision. Then, with a heavy heart, he made his decision: He would feed the poor. An hour later, the monk returned to his room. When he opened the door, he could hardly believe his eyes. There was the vision, waiting for him. It smiled and said, "My son, had you not gone to feed the poor, I would not have stayed."

How might this story apply to my life?

Let those who are searching for God
visit the prison before going to the temple.
Let them visit the hospital before going to church.
Let them feed the hungry before reading the Bible.
                                                                  TOYOHIKO KAGAWA (slightly adapted)


Day 135 (Tue)

"[I was thirsty] and you gave me a drink."
                                                                  MATTHEW 25:35

Eddie Fischer knew the kind of questions television reporters would ask him: "Why are you walking from Guatemala to Pennsylvania?" "I'm trying to raise money for a water system in Rabinal, where thirty thousand Indians have had no safe water supply since the earthquake." "Why did a college student, like you, go to Rabinal in the first place?" "I volunteered to help rebuild their water system. A new one costs $300,000, and they didn't have that kind of money. So when my return plane ticket came due, I got a refund and decided to try to raise the money by walking home." Eddie arrived home six months and four thousand miles later. His "Water Walk" raise exactly $300,000.

What keeps me from volunteering some of my time to help unfortunate people?

Use what talents you possess:
the woods would be very silent
if no birds sang there
except those that sang best.
                                                                  HENRY VAN DYKE


Day 136 (Wed)

"I was a stranger and you received me."
                                                                  MATTHEW 25:35

Roy Popkin tells a true story about an old man who collapsed on a Brooklyn street corner and was rushed to Kings County Hospital. After some amateur detective work, a nurse located what seemed to be the man's son, who was a marine stationed in North Carolina. When the marine arrived, the nurse said to the old man, "Your son's here." The old man, now, heavily sedated, reached out his hand feebly. The marine took it and held it tenderly for the next four hours. Occasionally the nurse suggested the marine take a break, but he refused. About dawn the old man died. After he passed away, the marine said to the nurse, "Who was that man?" The nurse said, "Wasn't he your father?" "No," said the marine, "but I saw he was dying and needed a son badly, so I stayed."

When was the last time I went out of my way to be with another, simply because that person needed me?

If you haven't got charity in your heart,
you have the worst kind of heart trouble.
                                                                  BOB HOPE


Day 137 (Thu)

"[I was] naked and you clothed me."
                                                                  MATTHEW 25:36

Sister Emmanuelle lives among the ten thousand garbage pickers in Cairo. These people survive by scouring the city's garbage dump. Sister's day begins at four-thirty as she wakes in a hut with a hole in the roof. After washing in a bucket of water, she walks two miles to attend Mass. That walk takes her past piles of rotting garbage and snarling dogs. At nine o'clock she begins teaching Arabic to about forty children. She ends by teaching them how to pray. Then she visits families, writing down their pressing needs in a notebook. Sister Emmanuelle is a gentle person, says Time magazine. But "her gentleness turns to steel when she brow eats the bureaucrats and the bankers to help her garbage pickers."

Have I ever considered giving my life-or a part of it- in service to the poor, as Sister Emmanuelle is doing?

Great souls aren't those
with less passion and greater virtue
than other souls,
but only those with greater designs.
                                                                  FRANCOIS DE LA ROCHERFOUCAULD


Day 138 (Fri)

"I was sick and you took care of me."
                                                                  MATTHEW 25:36

An old native in New Guinea used to read gospel stories to outpatients while they waited to be treated at the missionary clinic. One day he experienced trouble reading. The doctor checked his eyes and found that the man was rapidly going blind. The next day the old man didn't show up at the hospital. Someone said he had gone off to the hills alone. A week later a boy led the doctor to the old man's hideout. "what are you doing here?" asked the doctor. The old man replied, "While I still have eyesight, I wanted to spend all my time memorizing stories and passages from the Bible. When I lose my sight completely, Doctor, I'll be back at the hospital again, telling outpatients about Jesus."

What makes me reluctant to share the good news of Jesus with others as enthusiastically as the old man did?

[Jesus said,]
"If [my disciples] keep quiet,
the stones themselves
will start shouting."
                                                                  LUKE 19:40


Day 139 (Sat)

"[I was] in prison and you visited me."
                                                                  MATTHEW 25:36

Saint Peter Claver was a Jesuit priest. He worked among the black slaves in
seventeenth-century South America. Peter wrote in a letter to a friend:
"Yesterday..
a great number of black people,
seized along the African rivers,
were put ashore from a large ship.
We hurried out with two baskets full
of oranges, lemons, sweet biscuits..
A number of blacks were lying on mud...
naked without any covering at all.
We took off our cloaks, went to a store,
brought from there all the wood available and put it together to make a platform.
Then forcing our way through the guards,
we eventually managed to carry all the sick to it." (slightly adapted)

When I try to imagine that I am a slave lying naked and sick in the mud,
what are my thoughts as I lie there?

A person can be a truly a saint
in a factory as in a monastery:
and there's as much need for a saint
in the one as in the other.
                                                                  ROBERT J. MCCRACKEN (slightly adapted)


Day 140 (Sun)

"Whenever you did this for one of the least important of these brothers
[or sisters] of mine, you did it for me!"
                                                                  MATTHEW 25:40

By the time she was eighty years old, Lorraine Hale had spent sixteen years helping nearly six hundred babies withdraw from drugs. These tiny victims are born to junkie mothers and become addicted in the womb. They shake, vomit, suffer from bad diarrhea. It usually takes four to six weeks for them to withdraw. "Mother" Hale began this work in her own house in Harlem, using her own money. Sometimes she was caring for twenty babies at one time. Her work went largely unnoticed until President Reagan heard about it. Soon she had a team of helpers and a fully equipped center.

If I were in a situation like the one Mother Hale found herself in-
broke, unable to buy food for the babies in my care-
what would I say to God about it?

Charity is a naked child,
giving honey to a bee without wings.
                                                                  FRANCIS QUARLES


This week's theme:
How closely do I want to journey with Jesus?

An angel was walking down the street, carrying a torch in one hand and a pail of water in the other.

A woman asked the angel, "What are you going to do with the torch and with the pail?" The angel said, "With the torch, I'm going to burn down the mansions of heaven; and with the pail, I'm going to put out the fires of hell. Then we shall see who really loves God."

The angel's point is that many people follow Jesus more out of fear (of hell) and hope (of heaven) than out of love (of God.)

This week's meditations focus on your love of God. They try to help you discern how strong it is. The grace you ask for is:

Father,
bless me with a love
that will motivate me
to want to journey with Jesus
as closely as possible,
even to the point of experiencing poverty
and dishonor-as he did-
if this be for your greater glory.


Day 141 (Mon)

[Jesus said,]
"Anyone who starts to plow and then keeps looking back
is of no use for the Kingdom of God."
                                                                  MATTHEW 25:35

Christians come in three models: rafts, sailboats, and tugboats. First, there are the rafts. Basically, they are Christian in name only. They follow Jesus only when someone else pulls or pushes them. Second, there are the sailboats. They follow Jesus, but only in sunny weather. When stormy weather comes, they go in the direction of the wind and the waves. In other words, they follow the crowd more than they really follow Jesus. Finally, there are the tugboats. They follow Jesus regardless of the weather. They go in his direction not only when the wind and the waves serve them but also when the wind and waves oppose them. Tugboats don't always travel as fast as they should, but they always travel straight.

What "model" am I?
If I were arrested for being a Christian,
would they find enough evidence
to convict me?

To be Christians is to be like Christ.
                                                                  WILLIAM PENN (slightly adapted)


Day 142 (Tue)

[Jesus said,]
"Who acknowledges me before others,
I will acknowledge before my Father."
                                                                  MATTHEW 10:32(NRSV)

Arthur Jones was drafted into the British Royal Air Force. The first night in boot camp he had to make a decision. Should he continue to kneel for his night prayers, as he always had done at home? He squirmed a little bit. Then he thought to himself, "Why should I change? Just because I'm away from home, am I going to start letting other people dictate my actions?" As it turned out, Arthur was the only Catholic in the barracks. Yet night after night he knelt. He said later that those ten minutes on his knees often sparked discussions that lasted for hours. His last night in boot camp, someone said, "You're the finest Christian I've ever met." Arthur disagreed but thanked the person anyway.

How much am I motivated by a concern for what my friends will think?
By a concern for what God will think?

What we need isn't more Christianity
but more Christians who practice it.
                                                                  E.C. McKenzie


Day 143 (Wed)

[Jesus said,]
"My Father will honor anyone
who serves me."
                                                                  JOHN 12:26

The film Chariots of Fire is based on the true story of Eric Liddell of England. He was favored to win the gold in the 100-meter even in the 1924 Olympics. Then came the bombshell. The event was scheduled to be run on Sunday, which violated Eric's religious convictions. When word got around England that Eric wouldn't run on Sunday, incredible pressure was put upon him to violate his conscience. But he held firm. Eventually Eric switched to the 400-meter even, a race he had never run in his life. Just before the event, Jackson Scholz, an American runner, handed Eric a note. It read: "My Father will honor anyone who serves me" (JOHN 12:26). Seconds later Eric won the event. Still clutched in his hand was the note from Jackson Scholz.

Can I recall a time when I risked
a great deal to be faithful to my beliefs?

The only tyrant I accept in this world
is the still voice within.
                                                                  MOHANDAS K. GANDHI


Day 144 (Thu)

Jesus...rebuked Peter,
"Get away from me, Satan," he said. "Your thoughts don't come from God."
                                                                  MARK 8:33

The play A Man for All Seasons is based on the true story of Sir Thomas More. In one scene Lord Norfolk tries to persuade Thomas to sign a paper declaring that he thinks the recent marriage of King Henry VIII is valid. If More refuses, the king will execute him for treason. When More refuses, Norfolk cries out in frustration: "Damn it.. look at those names...You know these men! Can't you do what I did and come with us for fellowship?" Sir Thomas refuses again, putting his loyalty to God ahead of everything, even his own life.

Where am I currently feeling a pressure from friends to follow their lead rather than what I believe is right?

If a man does not keep pace with his companions, perhaps it is because he hears a different drummer. Let him keep step to music which he hears, however measured or far away. HENRY DAVID THOREAU


Day 145 (Fri)

[The Son of God] gave up all he had, and took the nature of a servant.
                                                                  PHILIPPIANS 2:7

A king fell in love with a peasant girl. But it occurred to him that if he married her and remained a king, the gap between them might be too great. She might always be conscious of the fact that he was royalty and she was a lowly peasant. So the king decided to resign his kingship and become a lowly peasant himself. He realized, however, that this plan could backfire. people might think him a fool, and the girl might reject him. He could end up losing both his love and his throne. But the king loved the girl so much that he decided to risk everything to make the marriage possible.

How is this story a parable of Jesus and his love for me? How much am I willing to risk in imitation of Jesus, who risked so much for me?

To reach the port of heaven, we must sail sometimes with the wind and sometimes against it- but we must sail, and not drift; nor lie in anchor. OLIVER WENDELL HOLMES


Day 146 (Sat)

[Jesus said,] "No one has greater love than this, to lay down one's life for one's friends."
                                                                  JOHN 15:13 (NRSV)

Colonel John Mansure tells this story in Missileer magazine. Mortar shells hit a Vietnam orphanage, wounding several of the children. An American navy doctor saw that one of the girls needed and immediate blood transfusion. Several unharmed children had the right blood type. Using pidgin Vietnamese, the doctor explained the need for blood and asked if anyone would give it. At first no one responded. Then a small boy slowly raised his hand. Quickly, the doctor swabbed his arm with alcohol, inserted the needle, and withdrew the blood. After it was all over, the boy began to cry. No amount of hugging would comfort him. Later it was discovered why. The boy had misunderstood that by giving his own blood, he himself would die.

How ready am I to imitate Jesus- even to giving my life for another?

It is possible to give without loving, but it is impossible to love without giving. RICHARD BRAUNSTEIN


Day 147 (Sun)

[When Thomas saw the wounds
in the body of the risen Jesus,
he repented his doubts and cried out,]
"My Lord and my God!"
                                                                  JOHN 20:28

Piri Thomas was sharing a prison cell with "the thin kid." One night Piri was moved to repent his sinful life. He waited until the kid was asleep. then he knelt down and prayed out loud. He writes: "I told God what was in my heart... I talked to him plain... I talked to him of my wants and lacks, of my hopes and disappointments." After Piri finished praying, a voice said, "Amen." It was "the thin kid." No one spoke for a long time. Then the kid whispered, "I believe in Dios also." Then two young men talked a long time. Then Piri climbed back into his bun, saying, "Good night, Chico. I'm thinking that God is always with us. It's just that we aren't always with [God]."

How ready am I to repent my past as Thomas did, and follow Jesus as closely as possible in the future?

Choice, not chance, determines destiny.
                                                                  E.C. McEnzie


This week's theme:
How ready am I to be rejected as Jesus was?

Two music critics covered a concert by a Russian pianist in New York City. The critic for the New York Times summed up the concert, saying, "It was a disappointing evening. One had hoped for more... Because of constant experimentation with the tempos, the work sounded disconnected."

The critic for the New York Herald Tribune summed up the same concert in these words; "Two-thousand-candlepower playing by the Soviet Thor of the piano. electrified to cheers an audience which uses its hands more often to stifle yawns than to applaud."

These opposing reviews of the same performance recall a line from Oscar Wilde's Reading Gaol: "Two men looked through prison bars- one saw mud, the other stars."

Just as the two music critics and the two prisoners had conflicting views, so did the people have different views of Jesus. Some heard and saw the things he did and said, "He really is the Savior of the world" (JOHN 4:42). Other people heard and saw the same things and rejected Jesus, saying, "He's gone mad!" (MARK 3:21-22).

This week's meditations focus on people's rejection of Jesus-and the rejection you can also expect if you follow Jesus (JOHN 15:18, 20). The grace you ask for is:

Father, bless me with the grace
to enter into the heart of Jesus- and
to experience
the sorrow and grief that he did
when the people he loved dearly
rejected him.


Day 148 (Mon)

"There was a division
in the crowd because of Jesus.
Some wanted to seize him."
                                                                  JOHN 7:43-44

The Battle of Gettysburg left fifty thousand dead or wounded. Months later, on November 19, 1863, President Lincoln delivered a brief dedication address at the military cemetery at Gettysburg. The Harrysburg Patriot and Union said of it,
"We pass over the silly remarks of the President of the United States."
The Chicago Times said, "The cheek of every American must tingle with shame as he reads the silly, flat, and dish-watery utterances of..the President of the United States." Today, the Gettysburg Address is considered one of the greatest speeches of American history. In a similar way, the words of Jesus were ridiculed by some people of his time. But today, even nonbelievers admit that "nobody has ever talked" as Jesus did (JOHN 7:46)

How much does fear of rejection influence what I do or what I say, especially when a group is involved?

Fans don't boo nobodies.
                                                                  Baseball star REGGIE JACKSON


Day 149 (Tue)

[Jesus Said,]" The Son of Man
must suffer much and be rejected."
                                                                  MARK 8:31

Early in his career, basketball superstar Bill Russell was criticized for his style. He says: "Before I came along there were virtually no blocked shots in the game of basketball. As late as my sophomore year in college, my coach was telling me that my defensive style was 'fundamentally unsound.' " In a similar way, in Jesus' time, many people considered Jesus' teachings ("love your enemies") "fundamentally unsound." Many people today still hold this opinion of Jesus' teachings.

How seriously do I take such teachings of Jesus as "love your enemies, do good to those who hate you, bless those who curse you, and pray for those who mistreat you." (LUKE 6:27-28)

If Jesus Christ were to come today,
people would not even crucify him.
They would ask him out to diner,
and hear what he had to say,
and make fun of it.
                                                                  THOMAS CARLYLE


Day 150 (Wed)

[Jesus'] family...
set out to take charge of him,
because people were saying,
"He's gone mad!."
                                                                  MARK 3:21

In 1876, the president of Western Union laughed at Alexander Graham Bell, dubbing his telephone invention a useless "toy." In 1878, the British Parliament joked about Thomas Edison's plans for an electric light. In 1908, people ridiculed Billy Durant for suggesting that cars would someday replace the horse and buggy. In 1921, Tris Speaker criticized Babe Ruth, saying, "Ruth made a big mistake when he gave up pitching [and became an outfielder]." In 1940, military experts laughed at the suggestion that the helicopter had potential military value.

As a rule, am I more prone to speak up in praise or in blame?
Supportively or nonsupportively? Constructively or destructively? Why?


Day 151 (Thu)

"Can anything good come from Nazareth?"
                                                                  JOHN 1:46

One day a partially deaf boy came home from school with a note from his teacher. It suggested that he was too dull to learn and was holding back the entire class. When the boy's mother read it, she felt terrible. But she also felt challenged. "My son, Tom, is not too dull to learn," she said to herself. "I'll teach him myself." When Tom died many years later, the entire nation honored him in a remarkable way. At exactly 9:59 P.M., Eastern Standard Time, every home in the United States turned off its lights for one minute, as a tribute to the man who had invented those lights. Thomas Edison invented not only the electric light but also the movie projector and the record player. When he died, the boy who was "too dull to learn" had over a thousand patents to his credit.

How much do I let other people's negative remarks discourage me?

He has the right to criticize
who has the heart to help.
                                                                  ABRAHAM LINCOLN


Day 152 (Fri)

Jesus said, "Forgive them, Father!
They don't know what they are doing."
                                                                  LUKE 23:34

One of Hollywood's popular animated carton characters was a romantic skunk called Pepe LePew. He was forever falling in love with someone. But he was always rejected because of his odor. This didn't stop Pepe, however. He just kept right on loving-and right on being rejected. That's why filmgoers loved Pepe. He never gave up on people or on love. Pepe makes a beautiful image of Jesus. Jesus never gave up on people or on love either. He kept right on loving, no matter how many times he was rejected.

How do I respond
when people reject my attempts
to reach out to them in love?

Anyone can carry his burden,
however hard, until nightfall.
Anyone can do his work,
however hard, for one day.
Anyone can live sweetly,
patiently, lovingly, purely,
till the sun goes down.
And this is all that life really means.
                                                                  ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON


Day 153 (Sat)

[Jesus ] came to his own country,
but his own people did not receive him.
                                                                  JOHN 1:11

One night a fisherman heard a splash. A man on a nearby yacht had been drinking and had fallen overboard. The fisherman rescued him in the nick of time. Next morning the fisherman returned to see if the man was okay. "It's none of your business," the man shouted. The fisherman reminded him that he had risked his own life to save him. Instead of thanking the fisherman, the man cursed him and told him to get out. The fisherman said later: "I rowed away with tears in my eyes. But the experience was worth it, because it gave me an understanding of how Jesus felt when he was rejected by those he saved. "

How able am I to draw good from bad?

I can say with complete truthfulness
that everything I have learned
in my seventy-five years in this world,
everything that has truly enhanced
and enlightened my experience,
has been through affliction
and not through happiness.
                                                                  MALCOM MUGGERIDGE


Day 154 (Sun)

They picked up stones to throw at [Jesus].
                                                                  JOHN 8:59

"If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you,
But make allowance for their doubting too...
Or being lied about, don't deal in lies,
Or being hated, don't give way to hating...
If you can dream-and not make dreams your master;
If you can meet with triumph and disaster
And treat those two imposters just the same;
If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken
Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools,
Or watch the things you gave your life to broken,
And stoop and build'em up with worn-out tools;
If you can walk with crowds and keep your virtue,
Or walk with kings-nor lose the common touch;
If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you,
If all men count with you, but none too much;
Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it,
And-which is more-you'll be a Man, my son!"
                                                                  RUDYARD KIPLING, "IF"

Read the poem, pausing occasionally to reflect on how it applied to Jesus.

Character is a victory, not a gift.
                                                                  ANONYMOUS


This week's theme:
How well do I understand the Eucharist?

A church in Cologne, Germany, has a beautiful door containing four panels.

The first panel depicts six water jugs, symbols of the miracle of Cana, where Jesus changed water into wine.

The second panel depicts five loaves and two fish, symbols of the miracle near Capernaum, where Jesus multiplied bread and fish to feed a hungry crowd.

The third panel shows thirteen people at a table, symbolizing the Last Supper, where Jesus gave bread to his disciples, saying, "This is my body.Do this in memory of me" (LUKE 22:19).

The fourth panel shows three people around a table symbolizing the Emmaus supper on Easter Sunday night.

The door is a beautiful summary of the key teachings of the Bible concerning the Eucharist.

This week's meditations focus on the incredible mystery of God's love as expressed in the Eucharist. The grace you ask for is:

Father, bless me with the grace
to enter into the heart of your Son,
that I might better understand
how the Eucharist
expresses your love for me and
why Jesus said,
"Do this in memory of me."


Day 155 (Mon)

The day before the Passover...
Jesus knew that the hour had come..
[And so when all were seated for the
Passover meal, Jesus] rose...
and began to wash the disciples' feet.
                                                                  JOHN 13:1,4-5

Richard Foster writes:
"The disciples [knew] ..that someone needed to wash the others' feet.
The problem was that the only people who washed feet were the least. It was such a sore point that they were not even going to talk about it. Then Jesus took a towel and basin and redefined greatness."
The disciples were deeply moved. Jesus said to them, "I have set an example for you, so that you will do just what I have done" (JOHN 13:15)

What does Jesus' example say to me, and how does it apply to my life right now?

[Jesus said,]
"If you are about to offer
your gift to God at the altar
and there you remember that your brother
[or sister] has something against you...
go at once and make peace...and then
come back and offer your gift to God"
                                                                  MATTHEW 5:23-24


Day 156 (Tue)

[Jesus said,] "Take this and share it."
                                                                  LUKE 22:17

Jesus introduced the Passover meal in the traditional way. He prepared a cup of red wine, saying, "Take this and share it." Sharing the same cup dramatized the unity of all present. Red wine recalled both the blood-marked doors in Egypt and the covenant blood at Mount Sinai. The meal traditionally began with the eating of bitter herbs. This was the cue for the youngest to ask, "Why is this meal different?" The father then explained the meaning attached to the foods to be eaten: The bitter herbs recalled Israel's years of bitter slavery in Egypt. The unleavened bread recalled Israel's swift exit from Egypt-not even waiting for the next day's bread to rise. The lamb recalled God's instructions to the Israelite families to sacrifice a lamb and eat its flesh (EXODUS 12)

When I imagine myself sitting at the table with the disciples and listening to Jesus, what strikes me about his explanation of the foods, especially the lamb?

We are nobly born.
Fortunate those who know it;
blessed those who remember it.
                                                                  ROBERT LOUIS STEVENSON


Day 157 (Wed)

[Jesus said,] "Do this in memory of me."
                                                                  LUKE 22:19

After the eating of the herbs came the "breaking of bread." A reverent silence fell upon the disciples as Jesus took bread in his weather-beatened hands, gave thanks, and said to them, "Take this and share it among yourselves. This is my body, which is given for you. Do this in memory of me." (LUKE 22:17,19) The disciples were struck by Jesus' words over the bread: "This is my body." They recalled the day in the synagogue at Capernaum when Jesus proclaimed, "I am the living bread that came down from heaven. If anyone eats this bread, he will live forever. The bread that I will give...is my flesh, which I give so that the world may live" (JOHN 6:51). After Jesus spoke these words, many of his disciples would no longer walk with him (JOHN 6:66)

Why do I continue to walk with Jesus in spite of what he said at Capernaum?

The bread we break: when we eat it,
we are sharing in the body of Christ.
                                                                  1 CORINTHIANS 10:16


Day 158 (Thu)

[Jesus said,] "This is my blood."
                                                                  MARK 14:24

Jesus ended the Passover meal in the traditional way. He prepared a final cup of wine. Holding it up, he said, "This cup is God's new covenant sealed with my blood, which is poured out for you" (LUKE 22:20). Jesus' reference to a new covenant recalled God's promise to Jeremiah:
"The time is coming
when I will make a new covenant
with the people of Israel" (JEREMIAH 31:31)
The disciples would have been struck by Jesus' reference to his blood being poured out. It recalled the old covenant, when Moses poured blood on the people, saying, "This is the blood that seals the covenant which the LORD made with you" (EXODUS 24:8). The disciples must have sensed that something marvelous was taking place.

What do I sense as I imagine myself sitting across from Jesus during this episode?

The cup we use in the Lord's Supper
and for which we give thanks to God:
when we drink from it,
we are sharing in the blood of Christ.
                                                                  1 CORINTHIANS 10:16


Day 159 (Fri)

[Jesus took bread,]
gave thanks to God, broke it, and said,"This is my body, which is for you.
Do this in memory of me."
                                                                  1 CORINTHIANS 11:23-24

A man turned his life around. When asked how he did it, he took from his wallet a photo of a caseworker, saying, "When I'm tempted to return to my old ways, I remember what this person did for me, and I draw strength from that memory." The Eucharist performs a similar role for us. We remember what Jesus did for us and draw strength from that memory. But the Eucharist does infinitely more. For Jews, to remember a religious event means more than to recall it. It means to bring it into the present by faith and to receive from it the same blessing that those originally present received. This is the meaning that Jesus had in mind when he said, "Do this in memory of me."

How do I respond
to Jesus' request?

[The memory is] a spacious country
of the mind, wherein a thousand saints,
artists, musicians, and lovers..
live, speak, teach, carve, and sing.
                                                                  WILL DURANT


Day 160 (Sat)

I will not die; instead I will live.
                                                                  PSALM 118:17

After the Passover meal, Jesus and his disciples sang the Hallel. No doubt tears flooded their eyes as they did. Jews had been singing it now for over a thousand years. Its words read:
"I am your servant, LORD...
I will give you what I have promised..
I will not die; instead, I will live
and proclaim what the LORD has done...
The stone
which the builders rejected as worthless
turned out to be the most important of all.
This was done by the LORD;
what a wonderful sight it is!
This is the day of the LORD's victory;
let us be happy, let us celebrate!"
                                                                  PSALM 116:16, 19; 118:17, 22-24

What phrase of the Hallel strikes me most
as I reread it slowly and reverently,
meditating on how it applies
in a special way to Jesus
as he began his final hours on earth?

Thy praise shall sound
from shore to shore,
Till suns shall rise and set no more.
                                                                  ISSAC WATTS


Day 161 (Sun)

Every time you eat this bread
and drink from this cup,
you proclaim the Lord's death
until he comes.
                                                                  1 CORINTHIANS 11:26

Mark ends his account of the Last Supper, saying, "Then they sang a hymn and went out to the Mount Olives" (MARK 14:26). The disciples felt a deep joy as they walked along under the stars. But it would have been bittersweet, for Jesus had said too many sorrow-tinged things. For example, he said, "This is my body, which is given for you...[This is] my blood, which is poured out for you" (LUKE 22:19-20). Even though Jesus had warned his disciples that he was to die violently (MATTHEW 16:21), they never quite got the point. Nor did they get it now.

In what sense is the Eucharist today still a bittersweet joy-as was the Last Supper?

Every time ministers call their people
around the table, they call them
to experience not only the Lord's presence
but his absence as well; they call them
to sadness as well as to joy.
                                                                  HENRI J.M. NOUWEN


This week's theme:
How ready am I to say yes to God's will?

There was no radar to guide artillery shells in World War I. Missiles were simply lobbed over hills and trees much as one lobs a rock over a brick wall at some hidden target.

To remedy this situation, artillery officers used to go aloft in hot-air balloons to locate the target and give directions to their gunners.

Going up in the balloon was a dangerous job, because the person was a perfect target. One officer said that just the thought of going up made him "sweat blood." We can all relate to how that officer felt. We too have had to do things we dreaded.

Jesus was no exception. He also had to do things he dreaded. One of them was facing the ordeal that lay ahead of him on Good Friday.

This week's meditations focus on Jesus' agony in the Garden of Gethsemane, when Jesus actually "sweat blood" over what the next day would bring (see LUKE 22:44). The graces you ask for is:

Lord,
touch my heart with compassion
for all that Jesus suffered for me
that I may be moved to say yes
to all that he may ask of me.


Day 162 (Mon)

Anguish came over [Jesus], and he said...
"The sorrow in my heart is so great
that it almost crushes me."
                                                                  MARK 14:33-34

John Powell's book He Touched Me came from the heart. After John finished it, he felt uneasy about what he had written. So he ended the book with these words:
"Some of the admissions..
in these pages..come hard for me...
And I hope you will accept [them]...
as an act of love."
After the book was published, John received four to five letters a week from people, thanking him for sharing with them his vulnerability. Jesus does something similar in Gethsemane. He shares his vulnerability with us. And instead of making him less attractive, it makes him more attractive.

If sharing my vulnerability has such a beneficial impact on others and makes me more attractive to them, why don't I share it, as Jesus did?

Our High Priest...[can] feel sympathy
for our weaknesses..[He] was tempted
in every way that we are, but did not sin.
                                                                  HEBREWS 4:15


Day 163 (Tue)

[Jesus left his disciples. He went off alone],
knelt down and prayed. "Father," he said,
"if you will, take this cup of suffering
away from me. Not my will, however,
but your will be done."
                                                                  LUKE 22:41-42

Robert Granat's short story "The Sign" concerns a young man named Davidson. He has just mailed his first novel to a publishing house. Filled with fear about the publisher's decision, he goes outside and paces back and forth in an orchard. It was Holy Week, and his thoughts seesawed back and forth to Christ in the garden and "to himself in the orchard... to Christ preparing for the supreme agony of hanging by nails...to himself and his book with Dow Press.. He stopped and he said...'Thy will, not mine.'" Then it hit him. He really meant, "God, let your will coincide with mine and let things work out to the glory of each of us." Then Davidson sat down and cried.

Can I recall a time when I found myself in Davidson's situation?

The Will of God-
Nothing More, Nothing Less.
                                                                  motto of G. CAMPBELL MORGAN


Day 164 (Wed)

Once more Jesus..prayed,
"My Father,...your will be done."
                                                                  MATTHEW 26:42

Catherine Marshall was critically ill. No amount of medicine and prayer helped. One day she read about a missionary who had been in a similar situation. The missionary finally resigned herself to God's will, saying, "Lord, I give up!" Within weeks, she recovered. Catherine thought the story strange. But she could not forget it. Finally, she too resigned herself to God's will, saying, "I'm tired of asking. You decide what you want for me!" And the result? Catherine says, "It was as if I had touched a button... From that moment my recovery began."\

What might the stories of the two women be saying to me right now?

How often we look upon God
as our last and feeblest response!
We go to [God]
because we have nowhere else to go.
And then we learn
that the storms of life have driven us
not upon the rocks,
but into the desired haven.
                                                                  GEORGE MacDONALD


Day 165 (Thu)

Again Jesus...went away,
and prayed the third time,
saying the same words.
                                                                  MATTHEW 26:44

British essayist Gilbert K. Chesterton has written:
"In everything worth having,
even in every pleasure,
there is a point of pain or tedium
that must be survived...
The joy of the battle comes
after the first fear...
The joy of reading Virgil comes
after the bore of learning him;
the glow of the sea bather comes
after the shock of the sea bath;
and the success of marriage comes
after the failure of the honeymoon."
It is the same
with learning and doing God's will.
The peace comes only after the pain
of facing possible defeat-
as Jesus experienced in Gethsemane.

Can I recall a time when I nearly gave up because of the initial pain involved?

Character consists of what you do
on the third and fourth tries.
                                                                  JAMES MICHENER


Day 166 (Fri)

[When the soldiers announced
that they had come
to arrest Jesus of Nazareth,
Jesus said,]
"I am he."
[At Jesus' reply, the soldiers]
fell to the ground.
                                                                  JOHN 18:5-6

A modern commentator says of this unusual episode:
"It may well be that in this instance, the guards suddenly felt the full force of Jesus' personality and were utterly dismayed. In any case it is obvious that John intends to picture it as miraculous, thereby emphasizing the perfect freedom with which Jesus accepted arrest."
                                                                  GUISEPPE RICCIOTTI

Do I know of anyone who seems to radiate "power" just by his or her presence?
How do I explain it?

Jesus and all the genuine saints
throughout history had spiritual power and
they had a deep prayer life.
We believe that there must be
some connection between
their power and their prayer life.
                                                                  SHERWOOD EDDY


Day 167 (Sat)

[Jesus said to the soldiers,]
"If..you are looking for me,
let these others go."
                                                                  JOHN 18:8

Ernie Pyle was a newspaper columnist who lived in the trenches with the soldiers in World War II. He jotted down in a notebook what he heard them say. For example, one young man said, "I'm fighting hard, Mr. Pyle, but it's hell out here. At times, when the big guns get whaling away, when snipers start poppin' from the hedges, I just want to fold my tent."

Because Jesus had a human heart, he experienced human fear, as we do. Yet, after embracing his Father's will, he showed incredible courage. Why? Can I recall an experience of courage after I chose to embrace God's will?

We shall steer safely
through every storm,
so long as our heart is right,
our intention is fervent,
our courage is steadfast, and
our trust is fixed firmly on God.
                                                                  SAINT FRANCIS DE SALES


Day 168 (Sun)

[Peter took a sword to defend Jesus, but Jesus said,]
"Put your sword back...
Do you think that I will not drink the cup of suffering
which my Father has given me?."
                                                                  JOHN 18:11

William Barclay draws a fascinating comparison between the Jesus who entered the garden and the Jesus who left it. He writes in The Gospel of Luke: "A famous pianist said of Chopin's nocturne in C-sharp minor, 'I must tell you about it...In this piece all is sorrow and trouble...until he begins to speak to God, to pray; then it is all right.' That is the way it was with Jesus. He went into Gethsemane in the dark; he came out in the light-because he talked with God. He went into Gethsemane in agony; he came out with peace in his soul-because he talked with God."

Can I recall a time when I began prayer in agony and concluded it in peace?

Prayer does not change God,
but changes him who prays.
                                                                  SOREN KIERKEGAARD


This week's theme:
How ready am I to suffer for Jesus as he did for me?

Albrecht Durer was a famous sixteenth-century German painter. One of his masterpieces is called Descent from the Cross.

A moving detail in the painting shows a disciple holding Jesus' crown of thorns and pressing his finger against it to see how much pain Jesus had felt.

This week's meditations focus on the sufferings of Jesus. Their purpose it to lead to a deeper knowledge, love, and service of him. The grace you ask for is:

Father,
give me a deeper insight
into why Jesus suffered for me
that I may be moved to say yes
more lovingly and joyfully
to whatever Jesus may ask of me.


Day 169 (Mon)

[The soldiers led Jesus from Gethsemane
to the house of the High Priest.
Later, Peter showed up at the house and
was accused of being a disciple.
Peter vehemently denied it three times,
as Jesus had foretold.
Then, Peter]
went out and wept bitterly.
                                                                  MATTHEW 26:75

Peter's panic-stricken denials recall a scene from the novel Lord Jim. As a boy, Jim spent hours dreaming of doing brave deeds at sea. Eventually he grew up and became the skipper of the Patna. One night the Patna struck something and began to sink. In a fit of unexplainable panic, Jim leaped into the sea to save himself. Although braver hands saved the ship and its passengers, Jim never forgave himself. Years later, however, he bought back his salvation with a splendid act of courage that exceeded his wildest boyhood dreams.

Can I recall a moment of weakness, when I did something similar to what Peter or Jim did?
What kind of an impact did it have on my life-for good or ill?

A weakness can, with God's help,
become the strongest thing about us.


Day 170 (Tue)

[They took Jesus to Pilate, who tried
to set Jesus free, but the crowd shouted,]
"Crucify him! Crucify him!"
                                                                  LUKE 23:21

A famous troupe of actors was going to dramatize the crucifixion of Jesus. They invited local people to make up the crowd scene. A little boy was chosen by members of his class to represent them. For a week he looked forward to being on stage with real actors. Just before curtain time, the director introduced the local people to their "leaders," saying,"Do and shout exactly what they do!" Then the curtain went up. On a balcony at center stage stood Jesus and Pilate. The "leaders" began shaking their fists at Jesus and shouting to Pilate, "Crucify him! Crucify him!" The townspeople did the same-all but the boy. Try as he may, he could not bring himself to shake his fist at Jesus and shout, "Crucify him!" Instead, he began to cry for Jesus.

What feeling do I have when I put myself in the boy's shoes?

Go not where a path happens to be.
Go rather where a path ought to be.
                                                                  ANONYMOUS


Day 171 (Wed)

Pilate took Jesus and had him whipped.
                                                                  JOHN 19:1

During Holy Week of 1986, USA Today carried a story about Jesus' crucifixion. It was based on an article by a doctor in the New England Journal of Medicine. The doctor said Christians tend to romanticize the death of Jesus. In reality, it was brutal beyond belief. Ancient writers tell us that whippings often preceded the crucifixion and that victims sometimes died before the whipping was over. They also tell us that crucifixion victims sometimes went insane. One writer says that after the fall of Jerusalem in A.D. 70, Jewish freedom fighters waged guerrilla warfare against the Romans. One day the leader of a guerrilla group was captured. When the Romans prepared to crucify him, the others surrendered rather than see their leader suffer such a horrible execution.

What keeps me from offering my day-to-day sufferings to Jesus in reparation for his sufferings or to win God's grace to complete Jesus' work?

When you get the damned hurt-use it.
                                                                  ERNEST HEMINGWAY


Day 172 (Thu)

They stripped off his clothes
and put a scarlet robe on him.
Then they made a crown
out of thorny branches
and placed it on his head.
                                                                  MATTHEW 27:28-29

In Deliver Us from Evil, Dr. Tom Dooley tells about treating an old priest who was punished by the Communists in southeast Asia for "preaching treason." Eight nails were driven into his head: three in the front, two in the back, and three across the top. Dooley writes: "I washed the scalp, dislodged the clots, and opened the pockets to let the pus escape. I gave the priest massive doses of penicillin and tetanous oxide...The old man pulled through. One day when I went to treat him, he had disappeared. Fr. Lopez told me that he had gone back..behind the Bamboo Curtain. This meant he had gone back to his torturers."

Why would the old priest go back again?
What would motivate me to go back?

It is the crushed grape
that yields the wine.
                                                                  ANONYMOUS


Day 173 (Fri)

They spat in his face and beat him.
                                                                  MATTHEW 26:67

Flannery O'Connor wrote a short story called "Parker's Back." It's about a man named Parker, who lives with his wife, Sarah Ruth, in a poor shack in the deep South. She constantly badgers him about his lack of religion. She also despises the tattoos that checker his body. Determined to please her, just once, Parker decides to have a tattoo of Jesus needled on his back. When Sarah Ruth sees it, she shouts, "Idolatry!" Then she grabs a blunt instrument and begins beating him savagely across his back. He was so stunned, he just "sat there and let her beat him, until she nearly knocked him senseless and large welts had formed on the face of the tattooed Christ."

Can I recall a time when I accepted another's abuse rather than make matters worse?
Can I recall ever doing so simply to be more like Christ?

Christ himself carried our sins
in his body to the cross..It is
by his wounds that you have been healed.
                                                                  1 Peter 2:24


Day 174 (Sat)

Pilate went back out once more
and said to the crowd,
"Look, I will bring him out here to you
to let you see that I cannot find
any reason to condemn him."
So Jesus came out...
When the chief priests
and the Temple guards saw him,
they shouted,
"Crucify him! Crucify him!"
                                                                  JOHN 19:4-6

C.E. Montague's novel Rough Justice describes a little boy sitting in church with his mother. His mouth and his eyes are wide open. The boy is listening for the first time to the story of the crucifixion of Jesus. He is so deeply moved by what he hears that he begins to sob somewhat audibly. When people turn around and look at the boy, his mother bends down over him and whispers cheerily, "Honey, you shouldn't take the story so seriously!."

In what way might I be like the mother of the boy in Montague's novel?
Why?

It might take a crucified church
to bring a crucified Christ
before the eyes of the world.
                                                                  W.E. ORCHARD


Day 175 (Sun)

[Pilate] handed him over to be crucified.
                                                                  MARK 15:15

Father Titus Brandsman was arrested and taken to a Nazi concentration camp. There he was put in an old dog kennel. His guards amused themselves by ordering him to bark like a dog each time they passed. Eventually the priest died from torture. What the Nazis didn't know was that he had recorded his ordeal between the lines of print in an old prayerbook. One page contains this poem to Jesus:
"No grief shall fall my way, but I
Shall see your grief-filled eyes;
The lonely way that you once walked
Has made me sorrow-wise...
Thy love has turned to brightest light
This night-like way...
Stay with me Lord, only stay;
I shall not fear
If, reaching out my hand,
I feel Thee near."

When I reread the poem in a whisper, speaking it directly to Jesus as I look into his face, what does he say to me?

If ever man was God or God man,
Jesus Christ was both.
                                                                  GEORGE GORDON, LORD BYRON


This week's theme:
How ready am I to die for Jesus as he died for me?

The science-fiction story "The Traveler" is about a scientist named Paul Jairus. He's part of a research team that has invented an energy screen that makes it possible to travel backward into time.

Jairus is picked to make the first flight. He decides to fly back to the crucifixion of Jesus. Jairus is a nonbeliever and anticipates finding it quite different from the way the Bible describes it.

At the appointed moment, Jairus finds himself soaring backward into history. Minutes later the energy screen touches down on target. The crucifixion site is swarming with people.

Jairus asks the Command Center to allow him to move closer to the cross. They grant it but warn him to stay inside the energy screen. Suddenly something unexpected happens. Jairus feels drawn to Jesus. He is deeply moved by the love radiating from Jesus. It's something he never experienced before.

Then, contrary to all his expectations, the events of the crucifixion unfold exactly as the gospel describes them. Jairus is visibly shaken. The Command Center realizes this and tells him to return to the twentieth century immediately. Jairus protests, but to no avail. When Jairus steps from the energy screen, he is a changed man.

This week's meditations focus on the crucifixion of Jesus. It is hoped that what happened to Jairus will happen to you. The grace you ask for is:

Lord,
touch my heart with compassion
for what Jesus suffered for me
that I may say yes to what he may ask of me.


Day 176 (Mon)

The soldiers led Jesus away...
A large crowd of people followed him;
among them were some women
who were weeping and wailing.
                                                                  LUKE 23:26-27

A Good Friday procession trailed along an inner-city street in Chicago. Leading it was a man carrying a heavy eight-foot cross. Behind him walked other men in baseball caps and leather jackets. They were carrying smaller crosses. People came out of rundown buildings and spontaneously joined the procession. Occasionally the marchers paused at a place of pain-an alleged crack house, a spot where a boy was shot. At one point a woman ran up and hugged the man with the large cross; at another point a youth offered to help him carry it.

What goes on inside me as I see people spontaneously joining the marchers?

The Way of the Cross
winds through our towns...
It takes the road of poverty and suffering
in every form.
It is in front of these new Stations...
that we must stop and meditate.
                                                                  MICHAEL QUOIST, Prayers of Life


Day 177 (Tue)

When they came to the place called "The Skull," they crucified Jesus there.
                                                                  LUKE 23:33

A priest was speaking to students at a school for the deaf. As an interpreter translated his words into sign language, the priest noticed that she frequently touched her fingers to the palms of her hands. He learned later that this was the sign for "Jesus," whose palms were nailed to the cross.

When I am in pain
how helpful is it to recall
that Jesus suffered terribly
and understands what I am enduring?

I carry a cross in my pocket...
It's not for..the world to see.
It's simply an understanding
Between my Savior and me...
It reminds me to be thankful
For my blessing day by day
And strive to serve him better
In all that I do and say...
Reminding no one but me
That Jesus Christ is Lord of my life
If only I'll let him be.
                                                                  ANONYMOUS


Day 178 (Wed)

[Hanging in pain on the cross,] Jesus said, "Forgive them, Father! They don't know what they are doing.".
                                                                  LUKE 23:34

In his novel Legion, William Blatty portrays a Jewish detective standing all alone in a church. A priest had just been murdered while hearing confessions. The detective looks down at the blood on the floor and shakes his head. Then he lifts his eyes slowly to a huge crucifix. His face softenes as he says to Jesus:
"Who are you? God's son?
No, you know I don't believe that.
I just asked to be polite...
I don't know who you are,
but you are Someone.
Who could miss it?...
Do you know how I know?
From what you said...
No one on earth could ever say what you said..
Who could mimagine it?..
Who are you?
What is it that you want from us?"

How would I answer the detective's last two questions?

I know men, and I tell you
that Jesus Christ is not a man.
                                                                  NAPOLEON BONAPARTE


Day 179 (Thu)

"The greatest love a person can have for his friends is to give his life for them."
                                                                  JOHN 15:13

The body of Jesus, nailed to a cross, speaks a threefold message to those who look upon it and listen in faith. First is a sign of Jesus' love for us, saying in the most dramatic way possible what Jesus said often in his lifetime: "The greatest love a person can have for his friends is to give his life for them." Second, it is an invitation to love others as Jesus loves us, saying what Jesus told his disciples so often: "Love one another, just as I love you" (JOHN 15:12). Third, it is a revelation, saying in the most unmistakable language imaginable what Jesus told his disciples so often-love entails suffering: "If anyone wants to come with me, he must...take up his cross" (LUKE 9:23).
Which of these messages might God be trying to speak to me-right now?
Why?

God still speaks to those
who take the time to listen.
                                                                  E.C. McKENZIE


Day 180-182 (Fri, Sat, Sun)

Readings 180-182 are missing; I apologize. Readings will resume on Monday.
                                                                  ASYC


This week's theme:
How well do I understand what happened on Easter?

The Associated Press might have reported the Good Friday events this way: "JERUSALEM(AP)-Jesus of Nazareth was executed today outside the city walls of this ancient city. Death came at about three o'clock. A sudden thunderstorm scattered the crowd of onlookers and served as a fitting climax to the brief but stormy career of the controversial preacher from the hill country of Galilee. Burial took place immediately. A police guard was posted at the grave site as a precautionary measure. The Galilean is survived by his mother."

Good Friday left Jesus' followers in a state of shock. Their dream that Jesus had come from God to inaugurate God's Kingdom ended in a nightmare.

But in a matter of hours, something incredible took place. Jesus' followers were amazingly transformed. Radiantly alive with new vision and power, they proclaimed the unbelievable message that Jesus had risen. No amount of persecution could stop them from preaching this "good news." In time, some were crucified themselves. Others were fed to wild beasts in the Roman Colosseum. Still others were burned alive. But the disciples of Jesus could not be silenced.

How can we explain the incredible turn of events that took place on the first Easter? The only acceptable explanation is the one the disciples themselves gave: They had seen Jesus alive!

This week's meditations focus on the mystery of Jesus' resurrection from the dead. The grace you ask for is:

Lord,
release into my heart
the same explosion of joy
that Easter released into your disciples
after they had been plunged
into sadness by Good Friday.


Day 180 (Mon)

[Some women arrived at Jesus' tomb.]
Suddenly there was a violent earthquake;
an angel of the Lord came down...
The angel spoke..."I know
you are looking for Jesus..
He has been raised...
Go...tell his disciples."
                                                                  MATTHEW 28:2,5-7


Day 181 (Tue)

[When the chief priests and elders
heard about the empty tomb of Jesus,
they bribed the soldiers guarding it,
telling them,] "You are to say that
his disciples came during the night and
stole his body while you were asleep."
The guards...did what they were told.
                                                                  MATTHEW 28:13,15

Tomb robbing was not unusual in Jesus' day. Evidence of this was found in 1878 in Nazareth. It is a marble slab (now in the Louvre in Paris) containing Roman decree stating that anyone who has "extracted the buried, or has maliciously transferred them" is to be "sentenced to capital punishment." Solid scholarship identifies it as a decree of Claudius (A.D. 41-54). This puts it in the realm of possible "secular evidence" witnessing to the "empty tomb" of Jesus. What convinces me that Jesus' body was raised by God, not stolen by the disciples?

If the disciples had stolen Jesus' body,
is it conceivable that these twelve men
would then have faced death
with radiant courage...to propagate
a doctrine which they knew to be false?
                                                                  ARNOLD LUNN (slightly adapted)




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